I think in tripping you lose your identity to an extent (depending on dose). And they say you don't know how much you love something until you loose it. Well, having lost my identity several times to different extents in different trips I can say I now realize that truly loving yourself is the...

Growing up...evolving...

I'm going! :D

I am not a mathematician but I am in scientific computing so I know a thing or 2. I truly love doing proofs and I also studied some other mathematics for fun like group theory and things about the foundation of mathematics etc. Here is a quote that describes my feelings towards mathematics...

Sounds awesome. It always felt like the most insane thing to do without getting stupid, taking acid in an amusement park. I think I'm going to try a ride too this summer ;)

I actually thought this movie was really boring

The first time I did mdma I had the 'hey, it's not working, I'll take more reflex'. Then it kicked it - SMASH - and I didn't want to dance, I was just blown away by the feeling, moving in slow motion, if moving at all. I like mdma much better now. I don't like to feel like an idiot in love with...

Have you ever had 'contact' with an entity on a 'regular' psychedelic such as mushrooms, LSD or mescaline (so not dmt or ayahuasca)? About 2 months ago I took for the first time a high dose of lsd and at some point the whole of all experience was united in 1 synesthesia bundle. Then the...

Great. Many thanks for the elaborate advice. I am familiar with letting go, but how well can you still consider the thought "okay now I'll let go", on such a dose? :D I meditate and do yoga though so I have some kind of a let go instinct, but still, you never know :). Last time I took lsd I had...

Hi, I have tripped 2 times on mushrooms en 3 times on lsd. Mushrooms were 3-4 grams. Lsd was between 100 and 150 mics (approximately) each time. The first time I tripped on mushrooms I freaked out. The second time I did it 'alone' with a sober sitter (who has no experience with drugs...

I study scientific computing/numerical mathematics and I'm 22 years old. I want to create things, in what I study, in writing and in music and share what's any good of it with the people. I get bored if I don't create, so I have no choice! :D I also want to meet more nice people from different...

I think this article is kind of stupid "In contrast to "every man for himself" interpretations of Charles Darwin's theory of evolution by natural selection". There is really nothing contradicting to Charles Darwin's theory. But OT: yes I have felt this before and it's nice to see it in an...

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Hi, I've got some 300mg of mdma left from a party this weekend. Can I keep it for 2-3 months? I had already crushed the crystals and it's currently divided in 3 papers 'bombs' (that's what they call it in dutch) with each containing 100 mg.

I am truly afraid of alienation. I have only 2 friends that I can really relate with, and I have a really hard time finding more. And it is necessary for me to find more because they might both leave the country between now and 5 years. I have many other friends but they are simply not on the...

To me acidland is more like a giant cartoonworld, although a deadserious one. I like dancing and going outside on acid. I find the closed-eye visuals on acid to be just boring and flat compared to the mushroom visions I've experienced. Mushrooms have also been more chaotic to me.

We're just trying to make the best decisions to increase the survivale rate of our own offspring. When the basic needs of a person are fulfilled, thinking about your environment to increase the long term survival rate of your own children is an option. But there isn't necessarily anything wrong...

So, probably like everybody else in this community I got interested in Terence Mckenna. I've known him for years but only in the past months I've been watching some youtube lectures of him. Now I want to read some of his books. Since I don't intend to read them all, maybe you people could...

That's not what it's about. You and your offspring matters most, not "humans".

I have only done like 5 different drugs, so I can't list that much :D. But I don't like ketamine, it makes me feel like an idiot, and everything is so 'flat' and really just boring. I like mdma, but I have had some quite disgusting experiences with extasy pills that were of unknown quality and...