So I just got on probation a friend got some acacia root bark. Did some extractions. Smoked leisurely pretty apprehensive about inhaling too deeply for a few weeks here and there never experienced much. Visuals euphoric feeling short duration. So a few weeks ago I smoked some felt really good. But didn't break through, I really wanted to break through and see what there was more to this life. The entities of love I heard about so after failing once again to break through, I watched the spirit molecule. Once it was over I readied a large bowl(much more than ever before) and set the intention to meet these entities or just break through. I must note being on probation I've been in a constant state of anxiety and fear about drug test and what not, stress from my total situation of life. Anyhow. I smoked and inhaled as deeply as I could. Smoked and smoked more until the bowl was gone. Immediately I noticed vision change. I looked at my hands and they began to shrink and look alien( slimy) I felt them and they felt the way they looked. I felt my head and it felt the same. I looked around objects appeared alien, things took on a weird scary dimension, seeming reptilian for lack of a better word, I saw digital squares, the whole experience didn't seem natural but rather synthesized. The breakthrough- after losing awareness of my surroundings and my body. I was pure consciousness. Immediately I was in a BRIGHT white room. Nearest thing I could think spaceship? I was trying not to make judgements. An entity was there clear as day looking straight at me grinning wide, humanoid black cloaked looked remarkably similar to the alien "the awoken" off of the video game destiny. Immense fear took over, this is the opposite of what I imagined, I noticed another being I couldn't remember recognizable features, most I could remember same cloak but a lizard like head that changed colors. After this the fear gripped me. I wanted to cease existence, the afterlife scared me, the existence of myself as a soul scared me. These beings had a sinister feel and unnatural manipulative. After I came down to hearing my friend say it's not real it's not real, I began to cry, I hugged him asking why, what, the fuck, how? Never met a positive spirit or anything. I don't know what to do or what to think. Only love and leading a more compassionate life is what I could think. Also I was wearing earplugs. And when I took them out the experience ended. Sorry to post this here I really can't figure out how to post a thread.
