spice a dit:
I like how assiduously you ducked the elkhorn manifesto request/remark.
If you have no conscience, you're a sociopath by definition.
Websters.
I just ignored it. I dont read manifestos lol. Just the fact that someone had to put that on their or even someone else's name for something means its a waste of my time lol. Flame away lol.
The basic trick for getting into internet debates is knowing when to care. Care too much and you get heated and upset and have a tendancy to kick your cat cuz someone said something about your mother. Much better to let rash and damaging personal remarks slide off your back. Generally I feel bad for people that spend too much time trying to get other people to care about stuff that they dont want to care about by trying to inflame them or instigate them into an emotional conversation that is utterly pointless and meaningless in the end.
I just know when I want to care and when I dont. I goofed in the conversation about religion and I am staying away from it even from apologizing in it because I *DONT* want this board to turn into a 'chore' for me where I have to 'watch my back' in discussions because people start getting upset with me for my beliefs.
I'm already used to people getting scared or pissed off or upset with the mention of the keywords like "Christ" or "Jesus" or "God" with a capital G. Most of these people are like that because of how someone has treated them negatively and claimed to be in a relationship with "Christ" or "Jesus" or "God" and these people have now developed an emotional response to the words which have nothing to do with the meanings surrounding them anymore. If people have been reading my conversations on this board over the past month or so they would see that I dont sling those words around without meaning something specific.
Just this evening I got the reverse problem of this as my dad who in most things is a very reasonable person when it comes to my personal choices flat out told me that he 'cringes' every time I use the word 'psychedelic' because all he can think of is the countless people he knew in college that destroyed themselves on drugs.
So I get it from all sides. Parents that dont understand psychedelics, psychedelic friends that dont understand Christ. I'm used to being 'attacked' in a variety of ways for a variety of reasons and as such I have learned for the most part though not perfectly when to continue a conversation and how for the benefit of all parties involved. MOST people who have this visceral responses to concepts generally are so caught up in the emotions that they dont know 'when to say when' and will keep going on into bashing and abusing without even realizing they are doing it.
I know my trigger points is all. I know that anything that has manifesto in the title is going to be almost 100% propaganda. Read what webster's says about manifesto. Its all about politics and government neither of which I am interested in.
I dont believe in reading third party information on beliefs. I know from my own walk with God that relationships to people and even concepts are personal in nature and individual to that person. NO person can say 100% that they follow one particular set of beliefs or ideologies. Its the nature of the human condition that we naturally adapt other peoples beliefs to fit our desires and emotions. As such I always get that information from the person, not from third parties. I have no desire nor need to read someone else's 'manifesto' because I almost gaurentee that 99% of the people who have read it have no clue what it means even if they claim they follow it!
Just my perspective hey. Flame away if you like. Doesnt bother me. Just because I dont get upset doesnt mean I have no emotions. Oh contrare I have IMMENSE emotions and have a tendancy to destroy people with them so I have learned to hold them in check in situations where I might be offensive and damaging. Take a look at the pure hatred that came out of Crimzen when I fired that shot across his bow about the bullshit. I lost it for a moment and said in my soul "Alright motherfucker. You wanna dance?" So I took his words and twisted them back on him, picked out some emotions that I knew would thourughly upset him and trigger a visceral response and then let it fly. It was wrong. I admit that. And I'll apologize some day but I'm not ready for that yet.
Or would you rather I call you a lazy bitch ass ho mother fucker for believing in such stupid and idiotic shit without having a fucking clue as to what it actually stands for? Or maybe I should mention: "How stupid your father was for fucking your mother and producing such a mindless spore of intrinsic uselessness for a child." I could go on but why? Emotions are a spectrum, gotta know where to draw the line.
Personally I prefer finesse.
(And I dont mean either of those seriously, just an example of where I could take this conversation if I really wanted to but see no point or usefullness in doing so and I dont really feel them but I could if I let myself go By nature I'm an asshole lol, by the grace of God I *DIDNT* end up on top of a bell tower with a sniper rifle which people in highschool actually thought I was going to lol.)
Have I thuroughly twisted your perception of me yet? Gets tiring doesnt it?
Kissy kissy.
