spice a dit:
Cocaine addiction doesn't work along the same neurochemical lines as opiate addiction. Maybe you didn't feel the same signature symptoms as w/ opiates, but to me, this is just another facet of addiction per se.
The 'obsession to find more' which is what you said felt is addiction whispering in your ear. Just because this obsession wasn't accompanied by aches, cramps, heat flashes, etc. (opiate withdrawal 'classic' symptomology) don't be fooled.
It's another mask.
Yes, your psy was correct. We do all have our own custom addictions.
But this speaks more to the emotional underpinnings of addiction itself, rather than the nature of it.
You are absolutely right.
Anyway, I quit, as stated above, and WONT do it again, as, in fine, coke was more painful than pleasant, for so many reasons.
Though this is not my main concern, one of them was money, as this addiction, like addictive games for example, is so damn expensive that it would have probably ruined my - and, more of all,
my ones' - economy down.
I even stole money from my mother when in the culmination of this "damnation".
If only all what I / we suffered could be useful and help others not to suffer the same, all what I wrote here during these last months, relating the crazyness of my addiction when arguing FOR it, and the difficulty to escape of such a helly experience, if only one being would be
prevented to do coke and/or a,y addictive "hard" drugs thanks (even partly) to my / our comments, I would be plenty happy.
I found here sometimes comments, such as yours buddy, which I felt very well trying to take me out of my "obsession", and probably, somewhere in my mind, it helped to jump out when time went over.
So, also,
I thank here any of you who pointed out - sometimes harshly, but who cares ? -
my sad insanity when arguing for coke.
Drugs remain a fascinating subject, it exists so it is up to us to do what we think is correct with it, for sure it provoke alien thinkings, but for sure also, it cas be destructive... As Poison, as medicine, they have this pecular faculty to cure as well as they kill... So being carefull is never enough, my last advice in this would be : do never ever remain alone doing drug, do speak of it at any cost to someone, to anyone, but do NOT keep it for yourself. I am sure and confident that EVERYBODY can recover from drugs if able to ask for help.
For those lucky ones who manage drugs with enough care to remain healthy, sane and free, congratulation, but please do not be proselyt... This is the worse gift to be done even to one's worse ennemy !
Keep free, healthy, and happy !
Cheers everybody.