My jars of mycelium that are in the colonization stage are in an incubator that is wrapped up in a blanket(to keep light out), and ive begun meditating with them. The jars are in a tub witch is floating in warm water, i sit next to the tub and rest my head on it, its almost like im floating on a warm blanket of nothingness and am in a complete state of freedom. im not sure exactly why ive been doing this, but i know that it feels good to me.
During this 'meditation' so to say, i go back to all of the happyness and love ive felt throughout my life, and try to re-live those feelings as best i can. Its quite amazing really, i havnt meditated in much too long, and have sort of lost touch with my spiritual side, but doing this brings me right back to all of the positivity ive felt spread throughout my life. I try to chanel this positive energy as best i can into the warm and comforting incubator. and i can almost feel the young soon-to-be mushrooms, lapping it up like a kittin with a bowl of milk, then thanking me for the company and compassion.
although this may be unnessary for actual growth, i think this is extremly benificial all together. Not only do i have something to motivate me to re-live those positive feelings, but i have something to channel it into that im going to eventually consume. I dont know if it will influence the trip at all, but i think after doing this daily throughout the remainder of their life, it will effect it to an extent.
I feel like im almost communicating with them, they give me the feeling that its wrong to simply cultivate them for my own spiritual benifit and not give anything in return. So im sending them everything i possibly can, as prepayment for whatever it is they feel i should be shown when the day comes.
My last time doing mdma i did quite a large dose, and some of the feelings i felt while on it have changed the way i view happyness today. Going back to those indiscribable feelings, and remembering some of my childhood happyness(you know the kind i mean, its diffrent from the happyness you feel later on in life) is quite amazing. Ive been trying to come to terms with alot of negitive aspects of my life lately, and this is really quite helping.
The past few months ive been living with my dad, and unfortinatly for him, he has lost sight of true happyness and has become a slave to the system of debt called money. He was once like me, but he lost sight of those sort of things, and refuses to open that 3rd eye again. That being said, about 90% of the things that comes out of his mouth are complaints or some sort of other negitive greed related speech. And this has been having a profound effect on me, ive begun to become more and more negitive, and started failing to see all of the positives in my life.
It feels as though ive lost the past few months trying to get to a point where i can "live" that i forgot to actually live along the way. Im going to start counting my blessings as much as i can, and remember that everything can only be as good as you view it. I dont like this road of negitivity ive been going down, and im going to change the path as quickly as i can. Hopefully if someone around me sees how i change the path, and sees where it gets me, they will follow. But i will no longer be discontent because of the fact that i cant change everyone for the better. Instead im going to live as happy as i can, and hope that it rubbs off.
I know i went far off of the topic of mushrooms, but i feel that its all relivant.
To anyone that eats these magical and mind expanding super organisms, may you feel all the positivity ive put into them, and take it as your own.
During this 'meditation' so to say, i go back to all of the happyness and love ive felt throughout my life, and try to re-live those feelings as best i can. Its quite amazing really, i havnt meditated in much too long, and have sort of lost touch with my spiritual side, but doing this brings me right back to all of the positivity ive felt spread throughout my life. I try to chanel this positive energy as best i can into the warm and comforting incubator. and i can almost feel the young soon-to-be mushrooms, lapping it up like a kittin with a bowl of milk, then thanking me for the company and compassion.
although this may be unnessary for actual growth, i think this is extremly benificial all together. Not only do i have something to motivate me to re-live those positive feelings, but i have something to channel it into that im going to eventually consume. I dont know if it will influence the trip at all, but i think after doing this daily throughout the remainder of their life, it will effect it to an extent.
I feel like im almost communicating with them, they give me the feeling that its wrong to simply cultivate them for my own spiritual benifit and not give anything in return. So im sending them everything i possibly can, as prepayment for whatever it is they feel i should be shown when the day comes.
My last time doing mdma i did quite a large dose, and some of the feelings i felt while on it have changed the way i view happyness today. Going back to those indiscribable feelings, and remembering some of my childhood happyness(you know the kind i mean, its diffrent from the happyness you feel later on in life) is quite amazing. Ive been trying to come to terms with alot of negitive aspects of my life lately, and this is really quite helping.
The past few months ive been living with my dad, and unfortinatly for him, he has lost sight of true happyness and has become a slave to the system of debt called money. He was once like me, but he lost sight of those sort of things, and refuses to open that 3rd eye again. That being said, about 90% of the things that comes out of his mouth are complaints or some sort of other negitive greed related speech. And this has been having a profound effect on me, ive begun to become more and more negitive, and started failing to see all of the positives in my life.
It feels as though ive lost the past few months trying to get to a point where i can "live" that i forgot to actually live along the way. Im going to start counting my blessings as much as i can, and remember that everything can only be as good as you view it. I dont like this road of negitivity ive been going down, and im going to change the path as quickly as i can. Hopefully if someone around me sees how i change the path, and sees where it gets me, they will follow. But i will no longer be discontent because of the fact that i cant change everyone for the better. Instead im going to live as happy as i can, and hope that it rubbs off.
I know i went far off of the topic of mushrooms, but i feel that its all relivant.
To anyone that eats these magical and mind expanding super organisms, may you feel all the positivity ive put into them, and take it as your own.
