This is my last post where i defend myself , as i said i have decided to change my style , because there is no one as blind as someone who refuses to see .
Heartcore , enlightenment is not something that just lasts two weeks after having a trip . What happened to the book you ofered me ?
Mindastronaut , Scamie ,Jakobian ,prostoner , and all the others who are honest enough to see two sides ,
Thank you . I love you .
I feel ill , i cant sleep , eat or shit . I spend months of my time and my pension finding out the facts to help confused people and all they can do is use every opertunity to insult me over and over again . What about some of you thinking about the way you use words , most of you arent native english speakers , i am . I understand when someone , especialy someone who speakes my language , is having a go at me , do you ? I just recieved a hostile note from the site organiser that didnt realy make any sense to me . I can only take it to be a threat . It means that they have had a secret trial against me where they were complaintant , prosecuter , witness , defender , jury , judge and hanger . I wasnt informed that i was on trial , i wasnt told about the false charges , i wasnt alowed to see the false evidence , i wasnt alowed to defend myself , i wasnt informed of the sentance , i was just let know that there was one . If i could have copied the note you would see what i mean , but it was gone before i could understand it . If someone wants to stab me in the back in public and leave me to blead to death , i`m going to die as loud as possible , i`m going to blead in their faces .
The bit about circumsision came from the book that lumian sugested reading in the bible thread "Die magie der pilze" by clark heinrich . it was meant as a double edged sword . A warning and a clue , a reminder so that someone might remember that they had read the book . If you read what i have said you will remember that i keep saying that my notes are written on different levels , that i hide clues and pregnant questions in my posts . There is nothing in that thread that i didnt know before . I thought that it was an interesting theme , that if i said it all directly that people would not understand . So i asked you all to solve the mystery for yourselves , if any of you have kids you will understand me , this is how an adult stears his kids , without them knowing . I`ve told people more about canabis and other drugs here than anyone could read in all the books and web sites in the world , and had to prove it , every single time . Has anyone said thank you ? Has anyone admited it ? When someone shows me i was believing something false i am pleased that i have learned , i dont atack them . Remember the mesenger who brings bad news gets killed ?
To put the record straight for circumsised people . It makes no diference , orgasms are in your head , if you have one nerve in your organ or billions is irelevant . Disabled people like ME are the proof . I am qualified to talk about it as i am efected by it . I was paralised from the waist down , i was in a wheel chair and was told i would never walk again , that i was going to die because they didnt want to give me dyalisis because i had tried to kill myself because i had been sodomised by the british police a la guantanamo bay and abu graib . You could hit my dick with a hammer and i would laugh . Inspite of that i have orgasms just like i used to before it happened .
I understand the bit you said about a wise man , thank you for ofering help , thank you all for that . Blind people are blind , should i acept that there is a good chance that they would walk infront of a car and hurt themselves and stop trying to help them , dont warn them that they are about to hurt themselves , kill them at birth ? There is no person that i would refuse to help if they needed it , there is no way to painfull or long , i said before that if i have to i will collect every grain of sand on every beach in the universe , put them in a row , count them and number them , if that is what it takes .
Lots of you have defended what i have said here on this site , or sent me private messages and emails encouraging me to cary on , telling me that i am the only reason that they come to this site . Thanking me for bringing a bit of sanity here . What about you all showing some social conscience and instead of you telling me i should not react as i do why dont you tell the people who are insulting me , being hostile to me , not to ? Why not tell them when they use words wrong ? Or at least a bit of both ?
If i dont apear here anymore you know that i have been baned for being honest .
I wish you all conscious dreams , not unconscious nightmares ???
LOVE GOD
THE END
