IJesusChrist
Holofractale de l'hypervérité
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First, an old poem I wrote last winter to attempt to show happiness in the grim;
I really like that one.
So, anti-anxiety meditation, which I am working on now to perfect and hopefully can help some of you if you have it as bad as I do.
Last night I had a strong urge that I had been and have been doing something wrong. I had, and will have again, an overwhelming sense of wrongness in my life. It can pertain to anything, but it is often illogical and impractical. I haven't tripped on any long-duration psychoactives for some time because of it (psilocybin, lsd, aya...); as soon as I start to peak I get the sense of "Wrong" and attribute it to taking the drug. I usually end up saying "I'm never going to do that again! I want to be sober forever!"
But this is not the correct vantage point, and believe me, it is not hard to change. If you've ever had a panic attack during a trip you know what I am talking about - it's like those but can occur every day, stemming from deeply rooted fears and stress.
So here is how to fix it! (Step by step!)
If you are alone, or can be alone:
1. Lay down. I find the most comfortable and productive posture is the pharoah with your legs crossed as well. Arms crossed on chest, legs crossed, back on bed/ground.
2. Realization that this fear is real is important. Believing that the fear and tension are just going to go away with breathing does not always work.
3.Identify what is wrong, name everything that happened within the last few hours that made you feel uneasy.
4.Focus on these ideas or occurences strongly.
5.If anxiety jumps, this is good - that means you have identified what is wrong.
6. I usually start to let my mind wander now.
7. I feel better or have forgot about the anxiety.
What is happening here is you are basically going back in your recent timeline and unraveling the "knots" that have you pulled back. You didn't have time to worry or fully understand the fears and tension before, so now you must go back. I like it and I've realized that identifying and connecting the emotion to an event or idea is very crucial in curing the problem.
However, if you are not alone
1. Tell someone you feel uneasy - "A problem shared is a problem halved." someone said on this board.
2. Talk to someone about the idea that makes you feel uneasy.
3. Just talk until #1 or #2 are applicable.
What I used to do, immaturely and unexperienced, was to blank my mind. To forget about what was making me anxious, to try to "overcome" the fear by disregarding it. This is wrong and does not work for me. Meditation for this specific cause is much different than meditation for pure relaxation. The goals are very different, so the technique must be different. You cannot reach pure relaxation if you have any type of stress lingering - whether consciously or subconsciously.
Thanks for your time, hope this helped someone
Don't see bleak upon the rain,
as rain is under sun.
The sun exists upon your bliss,
And allows your fears to run.
Hold and embrace what you can chase,
These loves will be dear to you.
Sum your chances, behold your branches,
And reach for the upper blue.
I really like that one.
So, anti-anxiety meditation, which I am working on now to perfect and hopefully can help some of you if you have it as bad as I do.
Last night I had a strong urge that I had been and have been doing something wrong. I had, and will have again, an overwhelming sense of wrongness in my life. It can pertain to anything, but it is often illogical and impractical. I haven't tripped on any long-duration psychoactives for some time because of it (psilocybin, lsd, aya...); as soon as I start to peak I get the sense of "Wrong" and attribute it to taking the drug. I usually end up saying "I'm never going to do that again! I want to be sober forever!"
But this is not the correct vantage point, and believe me, it is not hard to change. If you've ever had a panic attack during a trip you know what I am talking about - it's like those but can occur every day, stemming from deeply rooted fears and stress.
So here is how to fix it! (Step by step!)
If you are alone, or can be alone:
1. Lay down. I find the most comfortable and productive posture is the pharoah with your legs crossed as well. Arms crossed on chest, legs crossed, back on bed/ground.
2. Realization that this fear is real is important. Believing that the fear and tension are just going to go away with breathing does not always work.
3.Identify what is wrong, name everything that happened within the last few hours that made you feel uneasy.
4.Focus on these ideas or occurences strongly.
5.If anxiety jumps, this is good - that means you have identified what is wrong.
6. I usually start to let my mind wander now.
7. I feel better or have forgot about the anxiety.
What is happening here is you are basically going back in your recent timeline and unraveling the "knots" that have you pulled back. You didn't have time to worry or fully understand the fears and tension before, so now you must go back. I like it and I've realized that identifying and connecting the emotion to an event or idea is very crucial in curing the problem.
However, if you are not alone
1. Tell someone you feel uneasy - "A problem shared is a problem halved." someone said on this board.
2. Talk to someone about the idea that makes you feel uneasy.
3. Just talk until #1 or #2 are applicable.
What I used to do, immaturely and unexperienced, was to blank my mind. To forget about what was making me anxious, to try to "overcome" the fear by disregarding it. This is wrong and does not work for me. Meditation for this specific cause is much different than meditation for pure relaxation. The goals are very different, so the technique must be different. You cannot reach pure relaxation if you have any type of stress lingering - whether consciously or subconsciously.
Thanks for your time, hope this helped someone
