We all know Salvia is said to have negative, or annoying effects. But I've been thinking and going though my old diaries. I have always thought that Salvia puts me back into how I saw things when I was little. I remember from many of my trips, the colorful things I had in my room, like my beach towel, or old legos that were collecting dust-- seemed so very different than how I saw them normally, as an adult.
Here's a small entry from my diary, written 2 mins after the overall effects of Salvia wore off.
'I felt like a child. Everything was colorful and I nearly forgot the stressfullness of every day life. I had a very low extract, because I wanted to get a hold of how this drug feels before I tripped. I looked around my room. At my legos, at my beach towel-- and when I closed my eyes I had very light visions of spinning tunnels, which turned into chairs. I started to speak to myself. As odd as that sounds, under the effects of Salvia-- I didn't care. I was babbling on like a kid. 'The chairs, you won't believe all the talking, spinning chairs.' I noticed that I didn't care how I talked. Normally I correct myself because I'm so anal about English and everything-- but under her effects, it was as if I had forgotten all of English's rules; my filter for reason and logic was broken-- but my eyes were open to the unfamiliar, yet comforting memory of what it may have been like when I was a child. It reminded me of the reports of 'ego death' that I have read. I didn't understand it until I underwent it. It's not so much to die. Even now my overall ego and self-awareness is coming back; to me an ego death is the realization that you're not in control of everything. That's what it felt like to die inside myself and have myself re-birthed, in a way, when the drug wore off....'
There's more written, but since the first time I tried Salvia, I wanted to understand more. I didn't feel negative. The only thing that annoyed me was the sweating and loud music. Over time I learned that for a positive trip-- it takes total silence and darkness and a clear and open mind; you really never know what Salvia is going to remind you of, or teach you. I believe that a lot of the negative trips are because of a bad childhood. For those who treated it well, went into it with a clear and open mind and still got a bad trip-- do think about what your childhood was like. I'd like to hear more about your guys' experience, journey and rebirth with Salvia. For me, my childhood was great until I was went into middle school. Everything changed from there. But the core of me, my childhood was very happy and magical, almost. I think my positive experience as a kid definitely influences how my brain reacts to Salvia. Trips are a bit different though. I may post more on trips later. For the most part I'm talking about low extracts.
Anyhow, let me know what you all think. I'd like to know your thoughts and such.
Peace and love.
Here's a small entry from my diary, written 2 mins after the overall effects of Salvia wore off.
'I felt like a child. Everything was colorful and I nearly forgot the stressfullness of every day life. I had a very low extract, because I wanted to get a hold of how this drug feels before I tripped. I looked around my room. At my legos, at my beach towel-- and when I closed my eyes I had very light visions of spinning tunnels, which turned into chairs. I started to speak to myself. As odd as that sounds, under the effects of Salvia-- I didn't care. I was babbling on like a kid. 'The chairs, you won't believe all the talking, spinning chairs.' I noticed that I didn't care how I talked. Normally I correct myself because I'm so anal about English and everything-- but under her effects, it was as if I had forgotten all of English's rules; my filter for reason and logic was broken-- but my eyes were open to the unfamiliar, yet comforting memory of what it may have been like when I was a child. It reminded me of the reports of 'ego death' that I have read. I didn't understand it until I underwent it. It's not so much to die. Even now my overall ego and self-awareness is coming back; to me an ego death is the realization that you're not in control of everything. That's what it felt like to die inside myself and have myself re-birthed, in a way, when the drug wore off....'
There's more written, but since the first time I tried Salvia, I wanted to understand more. I didn't feel negative. The only thing that annoyed me was the sweating and loud music. Over time I learned that for a positive trip-- it takes total silence and darkness and a clear and open mind; you really never know what Salvia is going to remind you of, or teach you. I believe that a lot of the negative trips are because of a bad childhood. For those who treated it well, went into it with a clear and open mind and still got a bad trip-- do think about what your childhood was like. I'd like to hear more about your guys' experience, journey and rebirth with Salvia. For me, my childhood was great until I was went into middle school. Everything changed from there. But the core of me, my childhood was very happy and magical, almost. I think my positive experience as a kid definitely influences how my brain reacts to Salvia. Trips are a bit different though. I may post more on trips later. For the most part I'm talking about low extracts.
Anyhow, let me know what you all think. I'd like to know your thoughts and such.
Peace and love.
