Amaranth
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Some of you may have read my other topic, http://www.psychonaut.com/index.php?opt ... 86&lang=en. I decided to not post in that one though as I wont go to deep into that perticular subject.
I'll devide this into 4 different sections, this first part I'll go through the actuall trip and what happened, thus explaining a lot of hallucinations and not going so much into thought.
The trip:
Age: 19
Weight: 70kg/154lbs
Previous hallucinogenics experiences: Salvia a couple of times.
Dosage: 2 'acid gas caps'. They're caps that the enzymes in your mouth break down, inside the caps there's a small amount of liquid LSD. The guy I purchased them from is a really reliable source and he claimed that 1.5 caps made his buddy(experienced acid user) pass out.
Setting: In my moms appartment, she was to arrive the day after in the afternoon.
4:50pm
I take the first cap. After about 10 seconds it tastes kind of minty. Not to bad I thought.
+30 minutes
I still don't feel anything whatsoever. I'm starting to think that it might be because I swallowed the cap to soon, or that I'm naturally tolerant to LSD. I figure I should atleast feel somewhat different by now.
+60 minutes
Still don't feel anything what so ever. I'm talking to someone who has taken acid a couple of times and he said that I should atleast be feeling something by now. I figure, what the hell I'll drop another one(yeah, not the smartest thing I know)
+90 minutes
I start to sense that there is something different. Very very subtle though, I can just tell that theres something affecting me
+2 hours(6:50pm)
Somewhat confused about otherwise easily understandable things. Things poeple wrote to me on msn just didn't make any sense.
+2.5 hours
I'm writing on a forum(a closed invite-only forum for selling/buying hallucinogenics) to ask why I'm not getting any effect from this acid. As I'm writing my post I see that the text field grows slightly, the text starts to float around. Nice I thought, I guess this just comes on really slow.
This is where I start to loose track of time. I talk to various people about a bunch of stuff(not confused anymore) I start to feel a weird and slightly uncomfertable sensation in my arms, it feels kind of nice at the same time though. I notice that the keyboard feels like a big cotton ball, without the texture. Writing on it feels like just tapping in the air with just a small bit of resistance. I try putting my hands in mid air, and this felt really awesome, I felt no effort to keep them there, it was as if they where not affected by gravity. The text on my screen shifts from bold to not so bold all the time, I'm still not having any trouble reading it.
I sit here and think of a bunch of things that I need to think about tomarrow, I feel that they're really important and that I've had some sort of realization on how to resolve them, yet for some reason I keep thinking that I should think about it tomarrow.
During this time not a lot of things happen, I just sit around and do nothing. The hallucinations are pretty weak and like I said earlier, mostly I think about things that I need to think about later.
~+5 hours(~10pm)
I decide that I wanna go outside, I'm having some pretty neat hallucinations by now, lights on the roof shifts, I can controll the volume of the music by breathing in/out, the computer screens enlarge when I'm breating in and etc.
For some reason I got stuck on this 50 minute trance session by tiesto and decide that I cannot listen to anything else. Nothing is as good as this is. I try to get it onto my ipod for a while, and when I finally do its time to go, I'm so much into the music that I wont shut it off from the computer untill I'm listening on it on the ipod. I didn't think much of it at the time but now it feels sort of odd that the music was so important.
Outside I don't see many things at all, everything seems pretty normal, except that cars seems to go sort of fast and that I can hear cars from really far away.
I walk towards the park and get a text msg on my phone, I pick it up and I the text seems to go really big and really small really quickly. I read it and keep on walking. I think get the feeling that I might get scared here for some reason, its kind of dark. I conclude the thought that its just me being paranoid, I then see this small trail into a really woody area where there are no lights. I decide to walk it. Just as I set foot on it it becomes really long and I get the feeling that a gnome(??) is watching me from the side of the trail a bit into it, i didn't see it though and why I thought it was a gnome I really have no idea.
I think, hell no. Turn around and starts to walk downtown. On the way there I go back to thinking about all the stuff I need to think about later. Half way there it seems that everyone is looking at me, people driving by in cars. I have no idea if they actually were and that I was walking weird or something, or if I was just imagening they were. Either way I walk home again.
When I get home I feel that it is utterly important to lock the door. I'm somewhat paranoid at this stage. The feeling goes away kind of quickly as I think about other stuff. I resume the music on my computer and turn of the ipod. Realize I have some terrible tensions in my back, its like a springboard! If I threw my arms backwords it was as if they it a wall and bounced back. I decide to lie down on the couch and enjoy the music for a while. The lights on the roof put on a little show for me as I, again, think about things that I need to think about tomarrow. I can't tell how long I lie there, but after a while the tensions in my back gets so bad that I feel I need to do something else to get my mind of it. I go to the computer and talk to some people and watch some milkdrop(visualization software) to tiesto(still the same song).
1am
first time I remember looking at the time since I walked outside. I decide to go to the bathroom to see what my back looks like(its really rock hard by now, very painfull). It's huge! I've never seen my back like that, donnu how "true" I saw it but it was awfully big. I realize that the mirror was kind of fun so I stand there for a couple of minutes just watching myself. I guess most of you know what its like. I could also see some sort of robotics under my skin on my arms, kind of neat.
I walk between the bathroom and my computer for a while trying to get my mind of the back pain.
3am
I feel as if I somewhat have landed now, this is about 10 hours(!) after intake. I'm still thinking about stuff that I need to think about tomarrow.
5am
I go to bed, realize that I'm still hallucinating when I see the patherns on the wall slightly shifting and the fake candles in the window actually look somewhat real.
I still haven't been able to turn of the music by the way.
10am
No tired at all, still having very subtle hallucinations from time to time. I call my sister since we had made plans for today, she says she'll come over at 1pm. I go back to bed and rest for a little longer.
~12am
I fall asleep
1:30pm
Now this is one of the oddest experiences I had. I suddenly, as if I had just started existing in that moment, see my sister half screaming to me "What the hell are you doing?" I think for a couple of seconds trying to comprehend what is happening and the answer "I guess I fell asleep".
Apparently she had called me over and over and over trying to wake me up since I had locked the door. She even rang the doorbell for 1 minute straight(its electric). She had to call my mom which came home and opened for her. Inside she yelled at me trying to wake me up, then shacked me. Still didn't wake me. Finally she really violently shuck me and then I finally woke up, smiled at her with a, what she described, really weird look.
Luckily I sleep really deeply normally and is sort of cookoo normally.
Post trip:
My sister and I was gonna go to a bunch of towns and put up posters for her cmopeny. I was only sort of tired now, not as tired as one would thought one would be after staying up all night. I was very collected and at a good mood. still having tensions in my back, not nearly as bad as the day before though.
About 10pm, all my back tensions were gone and I could finally go to sleep.
Thoughts:
During the trip I was socially a sort of person that I normally try to be in my everyday life, happy, funny, spontaneous and easy to talk to. I was clearly in a different state of mind. I still feel as if I'm 10% of that person now, 2 days later. Which is nice.
I had a really weird feeling while I was tripping, as if I had oponed a box to my mind, to my psyche. Now I was faced with two options, Either I can A: Explore this further and really dwell into my own mind and get a different understanding of the whole universe, I different understanding of life. Or I could B: Close the box and pretend I never looked. Allow me to live the rest of my life as everyone else. This is one of the things I felt I needed to think about the day after. It felt as a choise of the utter most importance. I cant feel that its that important right now, or that it would such a serious decision. I guess I'll have to trust my "tripped up" mind and really think about this decision though. I know this sounds somewhat crazy, but thats how I felt.
Another thing I thought about was how I was sepposed to become a more happy person(read my other thread if you want more information on this =)). And yet again, All I could think of was that this was something I needed to think about once I had landed. Today I feel as if my life actually is picking up, I was in a slight depression prior to my trip, and I was going further down that depression for sure. I don't know why I feel this way today, I feel as if I got a different view of perspective and different way of understanding. I cannot define what it is though, what different perspective I got. I just feel differently towards the whole situation.
During my trip I also had a sense of that everyone opinion is worth something, that no ones opinion should be discarded, no matter how odd or stupid it might sound, because this person does feel this way and has a right to do so. I also felt as if everyone is worth listening to and that everyone holds his own wisdom. It's kind of hard to explain but this is one of the feelings I still feel now, post-trip. I really appriciate this and feel sort of stupid for not realizing this earlier.
Questions:
I have read a lot about other persons tripping, it seems as if they sort of loose controll of themselfs, and that they're having hallucinations of created things, I just had textures shifting and alterations. Higher dosage = more created hallucinations?
I've always wanted to have a "dreamy" type of trip, a sort of state of lucid dreaming, I wouldn't mind passing out and just dream through my whole trip. Expereince other worlds. Can I induce this with acid or must I look for other substances?
How can I tell if I should continue down this path? During my trip I felt as if the decision was really important, as if something was warning me that I might not actually want to learn some stuff. How can I tell what that was? How can I decide wether or not to continue without this information?
How long will I have tolerence, IE, when can I trip again?
Other than that, any comments or feedback is greatly appriciated.
Hope you had time to read the whole post and if so, thank you.
I'll devide this into 4 different sections, this first part I'll go through the actuall trip and what happened, thus explaining a lot of hallucinations and not going so much into thought.
The trip:
Age: 19
Weight: 70kg/154lbs
Previous hallucinogenics experiences: Salvia a couple of times.
Dosage: 2 'acid gas caps'. They're caps that the enzymes in your mouth break down, inside the caps there's a small amount of liquid LSD. The guy I purchased them from is a really reliable source and he claimed that 1.5 caps made his buddy(experienced acid user) pass out.
Setting: In my moms appartment, she was to arrive the day after in the afternoon.
4:50pm
I take the first cap. After about 10 seconds it tastes kind of minty. Not to bad I thought.
+30 minutes
I still don't feel anything whatsoever. I'm starting to think that it might be because I swallowed the cap to soon, or that I'm naturally tolerant to LSD. I figure I should atleast feel somewhat different by now.
+60 minutes
Still don't feel anything what so ever. I'm talking to someone who has taken acid a couple of times and he said that I should atleast be feeling something by now. I figure, what the hell I'll drop another one(yeah, not the smartest thing I know)
+90 minutes
I start to sense that there is something different. Very very subtle though, I can just tell that theres something affecting me
+2 hours(6:50pm)
Somewhat confused about otherwise easily understandable things. Things poeple wrote to me on msn just didn't make any sense.
+2.5 hours
I'm writing on a forum(a closed invite-only forum for selling/buying hallucinogenics) to ask why I'm not getting any effect from this acid. As I'm writing my post I see that the text field grows slightly, the text starts to float around. Nice I thought, I guess this just comes on really slow.
This is where I start to loose track of time. I talk to various people about a bunch of stuff(not confused anymore) I start to feel a weird and slightly uncomfertable sensation in my arms, it feels kind of nice at the same time though. I notice that the keyboard feels like a big cotton ball, without the texture. Writing on it feels like just tapping in the air with just a small bit of resistance. I try putting my hands in mid air, and this felt really awesome, I felt no effort to keep them there, it was as if they where not affected by gravity. The text on my screen shifts from bold to not so bold all the time, I'm still not having any trouble reading it.
I sit here and think of a bunch of things that I need to think about tomarrow, I feel that they're really important and that I've had some sort of realization on how to resolve them, yet for some reason I keep thinking that I should think about it tomarrow.
During this time not a lot of things happen, I just sit around and do nothing. The hallucinations are pretty weak and like I said earlier, mostly I think about things that I need to think about later.
~+5 hours(~10pm)
I decide that I wanna go outside, I'm having some pretty neat hallucinations by now, lights on the roof shifts, I can controll the volume of the music by breathing in/out, the computer screens enlarge when I'm breating in and etc.
For some reason I got stuck on this 50 minute trance session by tiesto and decide that I cannot listen to anything else. Nothing is as good as this is. I try to get it onto my ipod for a while, and when I finally do its time to go, I'm so much into the music that I wont shut it off from the computer untill I'm listening on it on the ipod. I didn't think much of it at the time but now it feels sort of odd that the music was so important.
Outside I don't see many things at all, everything seems pretty normal, except that cars seems to go sort of fast and that I can hear cars from really far away.
I walk towards the park and get a text msg on my phone, I pick it up and I the text seems to go really big and really small really quickly. I read it and keep on walking. I think get the feeling that I might get scared here for some reason, its kind of dark. I conclude the thought that its just me being paranoid, I then see this small trail into a really woody area where there are no lights. I decide to walk it. Just as I set foot on it it becomes really long and I get the feeling that a gnome(??) is watching me from the side of the trail a bit into it, i didn't see it though and why I thought it was a gnome I really have no idea.
I think, hell no. Turn around and starts to walk downtown. On the way there I go back to thinking about all the stuff I need to think about later. Half way there it seems that everyone is looking at me, people driving by in cars. I have no idea if they actually were and that I was walking weird or something, or if I was just imagening they were. Either way I walk home again.
When I get home I feel that it is utterly important to lock the door. I'm somewhat paranoid at this stage. The feeling goes away kind of quickly as I think about other stuff. I resume the music on my computer and turn of the ipod. Realize I have some terrible tensions in my back, its like a springboard! If I threw my arms backwords it was as if they it a wall and bounced back. I decide to lie down on the couch and enjoy the music for a while. The lights on the roof put on a little show for me as I, again, think about things that I need to think about tomarrow. I can't tell how long I lie there, but after a while the tensions in my back gets so bad that I feel I need to do something else to get my mind of it. I go to the computer and talk to some people and watch some milkdrop(visualization software) to tiesto(still the same song).
1am
first time I remember looking at the time since I walked outside. I decide to go to the bathroom to see what my back looks like(its really rock hard by now, very painfull). It's huge! I've never seen my back like that, donnu how "true" I saw it but it was awfully big. I realize that the mirror was kind of fun so I stand there for a couple of minutes just watching myself. I guess most of you know what its like. I could also see some sort of robotics under my skin on my arms, kind of neat.
I walk between the bathroom and my computer for a while trying to get my mind of the back pain.
3am
I feel as if I somewhat have landed now, this is about 10 hours(!) after intake. I'm still thinking about stuff that I need to think about tomarrow.
5am
I go to bed, realize that I'm still hallucinating when I see the patherns on the wall slightly shifting and the fake candles in the window actually look somewhat real.
I still haven't been able to turn of the music by the way.
10am
No tired at all, still having very subtle hallucinations from time to time. I call my sister since we had made plans for today, she says she'll come over at 1pm. I go back to bed and rest for a little longer.
~12am
I fall asleep
1:30pm
Now this is one of the oddest experiences I had. I suddenly, as if I had just started existing in that moment, see my sister half screaming to me "What the hell are you doing?" I think for a couple of seconds trying to comprehend what is happening and the answer "I guess I fell asleep".
Apparently she had called me over and over and over trying to wake me up since I had locked the door. She even rang the doorbell for 1 minute straight(its electric). She had to call my mom which came home and opened for her. Inside she yelled at me trying to wake me up, then shacked me. Still didn't wake me. Finally she really violently shuck me and then I finally woke up, smiled at her with a, what she described, really weird look.
Luckily I sleep really deeply normally and is sort of cookoo normally.
Post trip:
My sister and I was gonna go to a bunch of towns and put up posters for her cmopeny. I was only sort of tired now, not as tired as one would thought one would be after staying up all night. I was very collected and at a good mood. still having tensions in my back, not nearly as bad as the day before though.
About 10pm, all my back tensions were gone and I could finally go to sleep.
Thoughts:
During the trip I was socially a sort of person that I normally try to be in my everyday life, happy, funny, spontaneous and easy to talk to. I was clearly in a different state of mind. I still feel as if I'm 10% of that person now, 2 days later. Which is nice.
I had a really weird feeling while I was tripping, as if I had oponed a box to my mind, to my psyche. Now I was faced with two options, Either I can A: Explore this further and really dwell into my own mind and get a different understanding of the whole universe, I different understanding of life. Or I could B: Close the box and pretend I never looked. Allow me to live the rest of my life as everyone else. This is one of the things I felt I needed to think about the day after. It felt as a choise of the utter most importance. I cant feel that its that important right now, or that it would such a serious decision. I guess I'll have to trust my "tripped up" mind and really think about this decision though. I know this sounds somewhat crazy, but thats how I felt.
Another thing I thought about was how I was sepposed to become a more happy person(read my other thread if you want more information on this =)). And yet again, All I could think of was that this was something I needed to think about once I had landed. Today I feel as if my life actually is picking up, I was in a slight depression prior to my trip, and I was going further down that depression for sure. I don't know why I feel this way today, I feel as if I got a different view of perspective and different way of understanding. I cannot define what it is though, what different perspective I got. I just feel differently towards the whole situation.
During my trip I also had a sense of that everyone opinion is worth something, that no ones opinion should be discarded, no matter how odd or stupid it might sound, because this person does feel this way and has a right to do so. I also felt as if everyone is worth listening to and that everyone holds his own wisdom. It's kind of hard to explain but this is one of the feelings I still feel now, post-trip. I really appriciate this and feel sort of stupid for not realizing this earlier.
Questions:
I have read a lot about other persons tripping, it seems as if they sort of loose controll of themselfs, and that they're having hallucinations of created things, I just had textures shifting and alterations. Higher dosage = more created hallucinations?
I've always wanted to have a "dreamy" type of trip, a sort of state of lucid dreaming, I wouldn't mind passing out and just dream through my whole trip. Expereince other worlds. Can I induce this with acid or must I look for other substances?
How can I tell if I should continue down this path? During my trip I felt as if the decision was really important, as if something was warning me that I might not actually want to learn some stuff. How can I tell what that was? How can I decide wether or not to continue without this information?
How long will I have tolerence, IE, when can I trip again?
Other than that, any comments or feedback is greatly appriciated.
Hope you had time to read the whole post and if so, thank you.
one says 3 months, one 3 days. Interesting. Physical tolerance is somewhere around 3-7 days, I'd say, but I would never trip again after such short time. If you however, feel that you just haven't reached that level, you might want to do it after a few weeks again.
) but it seems most people these days get pretty weak, cut acid and never have the real full experience. (To be fair, I've still had insightful experiences on somewhat mild blotters, but nothing in comparison to the above).
