i drank ayahuasca yesterday and did not experience a trip. i got the usual feelings of anxiety and little tremors but never actually had what i know is a psychedelic experience. did not had visions except for very abstract stuff that flowed when i closed my eyes, reminiscent of what i see when high on weed, but it was just colors and formless stuff and very mild. the only describable thing i could see was this rotating thing, like a vault. my only "not-normal" feeling was a profound state of relaxation. also a bit of altered equilibrium.
"seeing stuff" was not my goal but i also had not magical epiphanies or any of the sort. i drank 3 half cups, more than anyone else in the group.
the drink was legit. my friends had good experiences and it was made by what we would consider a very experienced urban shaman. his name is Jose and he learned from an indian master of the amazonas. he's been doing yagé ceremonies for 20 years now and he knows a LOT about ayahuasca. my disappointment with the experience does not bug me that much only because of meeting this guy. he told us a bunch of crazy jungle stories and told us about the abuelos (grandparents), wise old shamans that live in the jungle and cure people with aya. it was very interesting to hear this kind of tales from someone who has had a first experience with the phenomena instead of just reading about it on the net.
i think maybe my past trips prevented the ayahuasca to work? i've had very intense trips before on lsd and shrooms. i don't know.... maybe Jose gave us a mild aya... like, he reserves the truly potent stuff for more experienced friends. he told me that there are a lot of variations of the aya recipe and that this one i drank was called tigre. it is said to induce tiger related visions.
what i DID feel was the purge thing.... i shat and vomited all over. i had a mild nausea first and wanted to vomit but the nausea was like not enough to trigger the gag reflex and i guess if it couldn't go out north then it went south. i actually shat my boxers a bit (i threw them away later) because it was an out-of-nowhere thing. i took 2 shits and finally, i think because of the disgusting smell and the remnant of taste of the aya (felt like very concentrated coffee with bitter chocolate), i was able to puke. most violent puke ever. it was as if this ball of black stuff had been pulled from my mouth. i made of the bathroom a mess. (i did clean, don't worry)
so yeah... i'm disappointed :?
anyways.... the days when i dreamed of having 'the' psychedelic experience and having great revelations about my life and my fellow human brothers is over. i did have a mythical, magical, oh-shit-what-just-happened-here trip (i've posted about it before) on lsd after fasting for 3 days and, well, i guess i learned the lesson already....
also, long time i didn't post! how are ya peeps?
"seeing stuff" was not my goal but i also had not magical epiphanies or any of the sort. i drank 3 half cups, more than anyone else in the group.
the drink was legit. my friends had good experiences and it was made by what we would consider a very experienced urban shaman. his name is Jose and he learned from an indian master of the amazonas. he's been doing yagé ceremonies for 20 years now and he knows a LOT about ayahuasca. my disappointment with the experience does not bug me that much only because of meeting this guy. he told us a bunch of crazy jungle stories and told us about the abuelos (grandparents), wise old shamans that live in the jungle and cure people with aya. it was very interesting to hear this kind of tales from someone who has had a first experience with the phenomena instead of just reading about it on the net.
i think maybe my past trips prevented the ayahuasca to work? i've had very intense trips before on lsd and shrooms. i don't know.... maybe Jose gave us a mild aya... like, he reserves the truly potent stuff for more experienced friends. he told me that there are a lot of variations of the aya recipe and that this one i drank was called tigre. it is said to induce tiger related visions.
what i DID feel was the purge thing.... i shat and vomited all over. i had a mild nausea first and wanted to vomit but the nausea was like not enough to trigger the gag reflex and i guess if it couldn't go out north then it went south. i actually shat my boxers a bit (i threw them away later) because it was an out-of-nowhere thing. i took 2 shits and finally, i think because of the disgusting smell and the remnant of taste of the aya (felt like very concentrated coffee with bitter chocolate), i was able to puke. most violent puke ever. it was as if this ball of black stuff had been pulled from my mouth. i made of the bathroom a mess. (i did clean, don't worry)
so yeah... i'm disappointed :?
anyways.... the days when i dreamed of having 'the' psychedelic experience and having great revelations about my life and my fellow human brothers is over. i did have a mythical, magical, oh-shit-what-just-happened-here trip (i've posted about it before) on lsd after fasting for 3 days and, well, i guess i learned the lesson already....
also, long time i didn't post! how are ya peeps?