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My first dosage was only 2 grams fresh which took me nowhere. Next time I'll be doing the equivalent of 3.5 grams fresh. I'm going to up the dosage with about 1 gram (1 ice cube) each time until I feel something.
I'm curious now

. If you care to tell, what went wrong, did you have a bad trip?
I'm also pretty stable mentally myself, but a bit on the pessimistic side. The medication I'm taking is just to relieve me of too much stress.
2 grams fresh is way to low to feel even a little glimps of the trip-feeling It think. I think you can start safely with 15 gram fresh. My first portion was 20 grams fresh.
What went wrong that evening? I was together with a good friend of mine. His second time, my fourth time on mushrooms. We took each about 50 grams fresh. To summarize the whole story: My friend couldnt deal with his strong emotions, I tried to remind him constantly: '' dont forget YOU lead your own trip'' , '' We wil always wake up'' etc, but on that point things just did not reached him anymore. And on a certain point when I saw him laying 'dying' on the floor, A kind of switch flipped in MY head, and finally not HE but I forgot everything. Finally I was the one who sank so deeply. Its really strange how fast it can go, and how you can forget almost everything. At a certain point I didnt knew anymore what really was going on, but the only thing I knew was that I was going to die. And I searched for help on the streets, I saw the apocalyps coming (and going) (buildings crumbling down, people turning crazy). And at the the end I just surrendered to death and really experienced a form of dying. Leaving my body, becoming everything, looking back on life, but accepting it all as it was all a part kind of the game. The feeling of total surrender to death really is something I will never forget.
When I woke up the next morning I really couldnt believe this really happened. But the mess, the puke, the ambulance-gloves, and finally the telephone-call from my friend (damn I was happy to hear his voice) was the prove it wasnt a dream. One of the heaviest emotional experiences in my life.
So the point is we never must forget WE are the captain of this ship. It is possible, but we must also never forget that it has to be used with a responsible attitude and with the good insight and respect. So never fly to high, like Icarus

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We can lead our trip. Its a test. And so is life. In the end everything is possible.