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NeophyteSage
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This is what I wrote last night when I got home after my first experience with Salvia Divinorum. It is from another forum, but I thought I'd share it here as well.
Earlier tonight, I tried Salvia for the first time. For me, it was a terrifying experience, and a life changing experience at the same time.
Although I didn't jump in with the 60x like *NAME REMOVED*, I still fill like I overdid it and realized I was not ready for what was to happen, even though I thought I was.
I picked up a gram of 10x and a gram of 25x, confident that 10x wouldn't be too big of a deal and having had experiences with plenty of other psychoactive substances in my life.
I went over to a friend's house because I don't know any experience salvia consumers, but he had experimented with it once years ago and hated it, but since he had done it, I figured his place was the best place to go.
I asked that him and his wife stay in the living room and I was going to smoke it alone in the bathroom, knowing that they were in the other room if I should need them. They agreed to this. I turned off the lights and lit a candle to try help set the mood.
I sat down and took a large hit and held it in for 15-20 seconds, and after exhaling noticed no difference at all. Hearing that the effects were supposed to be instant, I took another big hit and held it, again letting it out after 15-20 seconds. After this second hit, I again felt nothing, so I took a third large hit and held it in. At this point I apparently blacked out as I remember opening my eyes and both my friend and his wife were standing over me asking if I was alright. The magnetic forces were completely off and although I felt all gravity being pulled to the left instead of down, they were both perfectly horizontal. I tried to explain to them that there presence was uncomfortable and I needed to be left alone, but I was unable to speak. I somehow knew that if they left things might be alright, but they would not leave and I started to get very angry. I started believing they were purposly trying to ruin my experience, and than I felt as if everything in my life depended on this spiritual quest ending positively and since it was ending in disaster, my entire search for knowledge was doomed for failure.
As everything snowballed I became filled with pure rage, screaming at my friends and throwing my hat. After I threw my hat in pure anger, I saw my friend's wife and the look of terror on her face and realized the beast which had been unleashed, and I broke down in tears crying. I cried after this for a good hour, as the loss of control in that moment brought forth years of suppressed emotional blockage.
It turns out that at some point I had gotten up, opened the bathroom door and called for help, and that's why my friends were in there with me, but that is part of what I guess is about 5 minutes which I do not remember at all.
Fortunately my friends were understanding and nobody got hurt and nothing got broken in my fit of rage. I think Salvia may be something that may fit into my spiritual journey with the right guidance and the right work done within myself, but right now, it was way too much for me to handle, something I never thought I could admit.