High Dr.Mengele and Co.,
"I still hope you change your mind, and will come to this summer to the xxl-outside meeting anyway. Then we can smoke a fat blunt in the baking sun. "
That sounds realy good exept that i dont take any drugs anymore . The thing about the XXL meeting is that i get money on the last day of this month and then i would have to go straight to the bus station and book 2 or 3 busses to get there and 2 or 3 to get back . Plus maybe a taxi from the last bus stop to the party and back . My experience with booking buses and taxis is very bad especial for the time 20th to the 22nd of june = high season . When i add that stress to the stress of actualy going and having to talk to loads of bus people and organising it it seems to much for me . Then there is the fact that i get 300 Es to live for the month = after i pay the bus fare i will have next to nothing to eat for the next month . I wanted to know in advance so i could "earn" some money but i cant even organise that in the time available . I`m totaly fucked up health wise so the thought of all that is to much for me . I needed to know details so i could take my time about booking and save me a lot of bad nerves . And i have no passport or identity card so if big brother stoped me i would get castrated . Theoreticaly i could still come but its to much for my nerves , i want to have a good time and not feel totaly stressed out . I am looking forwards to meeting everyone , but it will have to be another time .
"if he wanted common sence, then he could have gone to any number of drug-education websites."
Personaly i`ve never seen any oficial drug education web site that shows any common sense .
A few examples :-
I had someone die in my arms after i gave him a fix .
A neigbour died in my arms after his "friends" dosed him with heroin .
I gave someone a bad trip because he was freaking out on acid after having to scrape up loads of bodys after a big train crash and i got him to talk about it = he relived it .
I took three people to a healing ceremony but was a little ambitious with the dosing = i had about 15 g of dried P.Semilanceata and had to lie down . The others had 1 - 3 g. One of the people has never taken any drugs again , another takes no drugs and drinks masses of alcohol , the other doesnt trust me 100% anymore .
The reason that Ayahuasca ceremonys are secret and you have to express the wish to be acepted and then be checked out for a few years is to stop people with mental problems self medicating or playing medicin man , to stop them inviting people to boost their egos . Shaman / therapists / doctors dont invite people or offer their services , they wait untill the person makes a conscious decission for themselves and ask for help . Mentaly confused people can not always make rational desissions . Then they dont have a "friend" who has overestimated himself to hold their hand = friends cant hold your hand on your date with destiny , you have to take your own responsibility . Which untrained person can do that ? Who can make a telepathic long distance diagnosis ?
"We should give the guy credit for at least searching for a more experienced persons opinion. "
Yes , Thadivine deserves the credit for not doing it and asking first . Doesnt that asking show that Thadivine had thought about it and had had second thoughts . But whats that got to do with responsibility , swolen egos or people stylising themselves to be "shaman" or doctors or therapists and recomending him to put one of his feet in prison ? How long do you get in prison in your country for murder ? Do you want another person to have to be fished out of a kanal after trying to talk to the fish , again ?
"If it was me, id make sure it was a good pill that contained real mdma"
= buy several and have them tested in a lab first because who knows whats in it or what its cut with . Do you know any doctor that prescribes pills without knowing exactly whats in them ? Are you prepared to do that ? What if it was your kid ? I bet that all the people who have recomended Thadivine to poison his friend have no experience as parents ???
Please , no more excuses , no more talking around things trying to deny your responsibilitys . Answer my questions . Are you prepared to take the responsibility for everything that could happen ?
Thats my last post on the subject . All i see here is little kids saying "Oh yes i can" over and over again . I hope you understand and dont force youself to learn the hard way .
Love Dr.Albert Schweizer................
