I don't owe you shit govna

[IJesusChrist]

I don't care. bring this.
layers upon layers of your vibrating hands and feet.

so solid and concise. like sliceing the aether around you, you aren't reading my mind are you?
You shutter at the thought, but how did you know? You are reading me! You do know.

Keep it out, pack it in. Scrambleing with my jelly forearms to capture back my information, but he can see. Don't control me, control me.
Let it go, go on.

I fall, i want to squirm and turn, but i accept. I will hit the ground and die. I will be in pain, but then I wonder, will it lock? Will I be in that pain forever, or will it go away? Can I remember after I die...? What is it that I am doing to myself. The logic circles and twisting bubbles that pop every now and then simply to utter the most monumental display of organic material before me! Like blob of my being, holding my entities, blinding me from the horizon, I'd like to know how it knows me. How I am captured by a volume so moist and dense. So congealing a mass as this.

It starts flowing away into the drain, some drain I just made appear, but why did I? Why question what I do not know? Why act on knowledge I am not sure of? Risk? Danger? thrill? The possibilities of this are pointless and endless. All amount to something but nothing. Gaining love and trust to grasp the wrist and pull me out, yet I want to decline to that state - the state I know and feel comfortable in, but it creeps agian on to me, until I am uncomfortable. Please, love, TAKE MY HAND and pull me.

I feel as if the door closes with all the memories inside, but when open, the maelstrom of death is upon my gaze, blanketing and surrounding my rooms of essense. To kill, murder the pain.. does it bring more? Do I even understand what I am doing? does anybody? Why is this so mezmerizing, so reoccuring, so demanding. Please for the love of myself and all others, just close the gate.

The gates closed.

I forget.

I feel blind and happy, but why do I think that this is foolish?

Its not foolish, but why to prove it! Its open again.

Close.

Open.

Relax.

 

[BrainEater]

questions over questions?? what is the purpose?? look to deep into that rabbit hole, and you'll stumble into it. the pace of time might be changing, and you wonder, how subjective that pace is to be perceived, if so at all. what is more scary; to fall or to hit the ground? what bears more pain, potentially? does that matter?? maybe or maybe not. the drain is that pointless and endless point, inhbiting that area of verbal frenzy and thickness.
don't murder,kill the pain... maybe you can heal it?? heal yourself??? is that too far-fetched, after all?? find stillness and act from thereupon, i suggest. are you scared to live?? we all know, dying is easy... and we all SAY living is or can be easy, tho we might be forgetting, our true feelings we had been sowing, hence forgetting what we would be reaping. that being said, i too, take the position that in the long run it helps more to confront your fears, than to run away from them. you can't run away from yourself forever, can you?? being aware of what and why you do anything is good, but if you focus too much on what you could be doing, could have been doing, etc etc etc, a unproportional amount of thoughts might be arising, too much for you to possibly be handling at the same time. don't overcharge your upper circuits too much or too often, i may suggest to you!
alternatively battle the reaper once more, but have fun doing that, will ya??? 8)


peace :weedman:

 

[IJesusChrist]

the questions bring death, and death brings fear, fear brings uninterrupting divinity. A perfect vision, a desperate grasp.

But why does death bring fear? Intuition, instincts, or is it new? Is it predisposed or not?

Challenge it, and lose, fear to lose, gain to lose?

Or accept & ignore?

Questions bring death

 

[BrainEater]

you create your own death. you choose when it is time. you know that, but you can't accept it, so you think about how you can ignore it... hence you create fear, behind which your ego-mind is supposed to be hiding. the ironic thing is that by that you draw or attract unfavourable conditions on your life more easily than if you would be nourishing a more positive and open mind-set.

you fear death, because you are afraid to not live or having lived your fullest life before it. so you created a fear that can inhibit your being in your everyday life and grow stronger. you need to create ignorance too, in order to not let another part of your ego see why you need to look away from that other spots...? i don't know, we all nourish similar ignorance or emotional attitudes in general...

open your eyes and live the life you want to live. simply create it or change it if doesn't appeal to you in the current state. love yourself and others unconditonally and enjoy yourself and others. it's not bad to share your feelings, when you feel good or to share your thoughts, when they are meaningful. it's also not bad to feel and think freely in the first place. be aware of that, even if you think you should not be, as "their agenda" (whoever they are) is to keep you (or make you) blind...

if what i wrote is not right, correct me and say what it is, so we can possibly avoid stupid conflicts and/or missunderstandings..