Thank you aya . You probably missinterpreted something i said about my daughter . If you want to know anything about me or my daughter please ask and i will do my best to explain . ( I`d like to thank the person that pointed out to me that wotsit can also mean plonka / chopper in english . Thank me very much ) .
To get some things straight .
I am not pro science and not against esoterics . My whole life has centered around and was mainly influenced by esoterics . I came to drugs through esoterics . My first real interests were / are ESP , wichcraft , astrology , tarot , i-ching , telepathy , near death experiences , meditation , trancendence and the ultimate experience of meeting / findeing the god in us all......the white light experience . . But not realy about the mechanical side of tarot , i-ching and astrology = the avoiding takeing responibility for the results shit of laying cards , throwing coins or makeing charts . I`m interested in the core , the intuition part that every good practicioner needs to interpretate the results of the mechanical bits . Personaly i`d rather go for the meaty bit , the real esoteric part of them = the hiden knowledge bit . The bit thats inside us . The bit that a large portion of castaneda is about . The bit that humans have forgoten and need to refind if we are to survive as a race . The bit that humans lost when they started to learn to read and write and give things names and lables . I am pro objectivity , neutrality and sensible critic......... especialy self critic . A person who cant be self critical and wont admit their problems and mistakes has a screw loose and lives in a fantasy world .
Psychonaut . The word psychonaut is put down to jonathon ott saying he read it in a german writers work . Either he is wrong or the german writer cant speak german as as far as i can see the word doesnt / didnt exist in german . The word should be psychenaut . Psychonaut means what it says psychotic trraveler and psychenaut means psyche traveler both in german and in english . I do think that the wrod psychonaut fits this forum though as very many people who post here have mental problems and are not real travelers of the mind . Most of them are polytoxic and are permanently trying to do the oposite of mental traveling wich is dulling their minds and turning themselves off . The one thing i`ve missed the most on this forum and in life are people who are realy and actively searching for the esoteric things in life . The hidden knowledge that is within us all and available to us all . Unfortunately esoterics , wich means hidden / latent knowledge , has also been translated secret knowledge and some sharlatans have used that to anounce themselves to have secret knowledge and say that they are profesionals , seers and prophets mostly for money and ego wanking . There is no secret knowledge . The people who claim to have it and those that pretend to sell it are liers , cheats and false prophets with no charakter and no personality . That is why i try to debunk money babas , gurus and sharlatans . Knowledge is free , it cant be sold or owned . An expert doesnt get that name from a school and anyone who gives themselves that title is a lier . Experts are people that understand and can explain their knowledge to anyone . The title is given by people who notice / see someones expertise .
I have been acused of being arogant . Just because i`m good doesnt mean i`m arogant . Just because i`m good and i know it doesnt mean i`m arogant . Just because i`m good and i know it and i say it doesnt mean i`m arogant . It means i am honest and intelligent and awake enough to notice it . Maybe the people who think i`m arogant have an inferiority complex and mistake self security , maturity and humor for arogance .
" forgive and forget"
Never in my life . Running away from problems , hideing from them and / or pretending they domt exist doesnt solve them it only makes them worse . Problems are there to solve , to talk out and learn from them . If humanity hadnt done that we would still be hanging round in trees getting wet and cold . We would also have fucked the planet , the weather , be eatingi meat , smokeing tobaco and abuseing drugs while waiting for terrortist McKenna to be raised from the dead by the lemurian and atlantian machine elves , and walks on the water on the 21st of december 2012 and feeds the hungry , cures all deseases , raises the dead , solves all our personal problems for us . and then saves the planet as the stars and the mayans predicted and as confirmed in the messages from the reptilians and the greys in corn circles all across the planet . I know this because pluto is fucking mickey mouse , venus has a peanut and mars is a bar .
Space . If you dont like the thread dont read it . And your two cents worth wasnt worth two cents . Could it be that most of your problems in life come because of you running away from them ? The same goes for all the kiss and make up , do it with PMs and lets pretend it didnt happen people . ( If i hadnt been talking to you i would have said idiots or morons ) . Its obvious that you have totaly missunderstood the situation here and whats been going on . Why not go to a court and tell the people that have been done wrong to kiss and make up or that they should just forget it . What you say is imatuire and crass . You sound like a christian saying turn the other cheek because jesus loves you . Fuck jesus . A person has to see the things hes done wrong , admit them , prove that hes real sorry for them and show the world that he wont do them again by being honest about them before he can be forgiven and the people who he has wronged can trust him again and carry on .
"I don't see the need for this inquisition type "nailing the guilty to the cross" bullshit. I think you've been trying to get CM into a corner for too long. "
Hypocrasy and bigotry . Whos been getting at who ? Whos been trying to nail me to a cross for more than a year ? Who started the first wich hunt agaionst me = your friend heartcore because when i came to this site he thought that he was the boss ( not that i think i am or want to be ) and started his war against me because i dared to have an opinion that he didnt share and to defend it with facts .
"And quit banning, banning is for commercial spammers and people with purposely negative agenda's."
Again pure bigotry and hip hop crass y . The main two people behind the call for a ban on me and behind the false "ban" on me are your friend heartcore and caduceus . I have that in writeing from the site royalty .
"so why exactly was this thread started in the first place?"
To say goodbye and i asked for and have been given permission to open this thread . I didnt stear it . I didnt start askeing questions and asking for honest answers , clarity and transparency .
Mumu your post contradics itself and stinks of cowardice , bias and favoritism . Things start at the start and not nearly at the end after more than a year of caduceus chaseing me from thread to thread and trying to get me banned . If you had been reading the threads you would have seen that caduceus had admited that he had been haveing a war against me . You would also have seen that i have tried to help him inspite of that in several threads . For instance when his car broke down , or with sugestions and ofers of help when he was talking about what to do with his shop / home , or when he was telling us about his fear of takeing DMT . Remember when i opened a thread with the sole purpose of helping him get through that fear and told him in detail how to over come it ?
" Until there is some kind of way of resolving these problems, this same old fight is going to come up over and over again as it has been doing this entire year. "
The problem will be shortly solved .
"i'm so tired of it"
Me to . I think most other people to .
"This isn't a courtroom, there's no jury here."
What the fuck !!! There wasnt a guantanamop bay type trial in the moderators section where one of the people who has been causeing the trouble , one of caduceuses lobby , was allowed to take part and i wasnt . A trial behind my , and the members , back . Where heartcore and caduceus were the initiators . The people who had been doing their best to have me banned for a long time . Who used false "evidence" , trumped up charges and dirty tricks to try to get rid of me because i dared to not agree with them and respect the hierarchy that they try to impose on the forum . And all because i showed that they / "the emperor has no clothes on" .
I dont want to win anything and i dont see things as black and white . I havent asked for caduceus or heartcore to be banned or punished they both tried to do that to me .
To the kiss and make up morons ..... please go back to the arse licking circle wank that the forum has recently become because of you and where you try to create the dark ages again .
