silmendil
Alpiniste Kundalini
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Love to all of you !
Last week I made my deepest experience with psychedelics in 20 years of use ... I write it now :
Love, happyness to all leavings. First excuse my English as I am of French education. I died and I came back. I understand the true name of the vine now. Let me share with you my experience. I am 40 years old and I have been using entheogenes for 20 years. I do not belong to any church and religion though I believe in ... something. This is good as I would not have survived otherwise. I prepared a very strong material as I was deceived by my two first experiences. I was prepared for a strong trip ... but when it kicked in I realised that I had lit a fire that I was unable to take in charge. I crawled to my bed and stayed there unable to do anything. I was taken in an incredible maelström of all sensations. It meant nothing untill I came in front of an ever changing and infinite wall of energy. The Sound was all around me, inside and outside ... I was the The Very First Sound and I melted down in it ... I became the Energy-That-Links. I stayed there an Eternity ... the time needed to listen to the Creation. "Hey, but this is only the sound of God, I know this since I am born" I said. "You do not want to see God, do you ? " answered a distorted voice that was evidently out of the Sound. I knew I was to die if I were to agree but a force stronger than anything pushed me to say "Yes I would LOVE to see God". " Here SHE/HE/IT is" It yelled in despair as he desapeared in a small black hole in the wall. I took an enormous inspiration, as if I had to cross an ocean underwater and I dived in the wall following that Bad Little Uggly Thing that thought it could afraid me with its stupid question. (remember I do not believe in "god" as we are forced to think he is). It became a kaleidoscopic eye that swallowed me in the DARKNESS like the flush of a Cosmic Toilet. Yes that was where lied the Sleeping One, the Great Architect, unaware of our presence, deep in the Void. He gave the initial movement but being only a wave he was kept unable to follow his creation. He needed a feedback that the Darkness kept away from Him. So since the First Beat he was sleeping waiting in total Oblivion, completetely alone, cut from evrything by this strange voice that did not want me to go there. The sensation of Nothing was so strong that my heart stopped. I was dead. I was floating, still inhabited by the Sound but God was sleeping. I had so much regrets to leave the Life, especially my two little kids. At the very last moment I refused this. I refused the Silence, I refused, the Darkness, I refused the absence of Love. In an utterly cosmic eruption of pure psychic energy I gave back to the Spirit the sound he had forgotten. And I came back suddenly. MY room was painted with puke, I was standing in a corner and I had a big mark on my left upper chest, where He made my fist strike in order to restart my pump. I was not before, now I AM. I have quitted smoking on the spot, I am only Love now. The meaning of life is life itself. I will also prevent anybody to do such a strong brew without a very serious bond to Life, Earth and the Universe. Be careful and from sapiens you can become consciens. Shall we mix one day intelligent technology with strong spirituality. I think that i lived from an instant in the quantic world. We, humans, are only a vehicle ... our DNA controls most of our acts and DNA is made through quantic relation, even if we think we are conscious.
Has anybody experienced such powerful experience ??
Last week I made my deepest experience with psychedelics in 20 years of use ... I write it now :
Love, happyness to all leavings. First excuse my English as I am of French education. I died and I came back. I understand the true name of the vine now. Let me share with you my experience. I am 40 years old and I have been using entheogenes for 20 years. I do not belong to any church and religion though I believe in ... something. This is good as I would not have survived otherwise. I prepared a very strong material as I was deceived by my two first experiences. I was prepared for a strong trip ... but when it kicked in I realised that I had lit a fire that I was unable to take in charge. I crawled to my bed and stayed there unable to do anything. I was taken in an incredible maelström of all sensations. It meant nothing untill I came in front of an ever changing and infinite wall of energy. The Sound was all around me, inside and outside ... I was the The Very First Sound and I melted down in it ... I became the Energy-That-Links. I stayed there an Eternity ... the time needed to listen to the Creation. "Hey, but this is only the sound of God, I know this since I am born" I said. "You do not want to see God, do you ? " answered a distorted voice that was evidently out of the Sound. I knew I was to die if I were to agree but a force stronger than anything pushed me to say "Yes I would LOVE to see God". " Here SHE/HE/IT is" It yelled in despair as he desapeared in a small black hole in the wall. I took an enormous inspiration, as if I had to cross an ocean underwater and I dived in the wall following that Bad Little Uggly Thing that thought it could afraid me with its stupid question. (remember I do not believe in "god" as we are forced to think he is). It became a kaleidoscopic eye that swallowed me in the DARKNESS like the flush of a Cosmic Toilet. Yes that was where lied the Sleeping One, the Great Architect, unaware of our presence, deep in the Void. He gave the initial movement but being only a wave he was kept unable to follow his creation. He needed a feedback that the Darkness kept away from Him. So since the First Beat he was sleeping waiting in total Oblivion, completetely alone, cut from evrything by this strange voice that did not want me to go there. The sensation of Nothing was so strong that my heart stopped. I was dead. I was floating, still inhabited by the Sound but God was sleeping. I had so much regrets to leave the Life, especially my two little kids. At the very last moment I refused this. I refused the Silence, I refused, the Darkness, I refused the absence of Love. In an utterly cosmic eruption of pure psychic energy I gave back to the Spirit the sound he had forgotten. And I came back suddenly. MY room was painted with puke, I was standing in a corner and I had a big mark on my left upper chest, where He made my fist strike in order to restart my pump. I was not before, now I AM. I have quitted smoking on the spot, I am only Love now. The meaning of life is life itself. I will also prevent anybody to do such a strong brew without a very serious bond to Life, Earth and the Universe. Be careful and from sapiens you can become consciens. Shall we mix one day intelligent technology with strong spirituality. I think that i lived from an instant in the quantic world. We, humans, are only a vehicle ... our DNA controls most of our acts and DNA is made through quantic relation, even if we think we are conscious.
Has anybody experienced such powerful experience ??
