ssdematt
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- 17/12/09
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Hey everyone,
I wanted to write again and tell you all about what happened last night.
PREPARATIONS: Used 30x. For the initial bolus dose, I used a fairly small pinch in a nice bowl, and smoked very hot as usual. For a new test, I decided to use several other smaller doses independently loaded & dosed over a 10-15 minute period.
SET & SETTING: I was sitting in front of my computer, looking at photographs of a "dead" person I knew from around my city and listening to the rap music he had written & performed in this life.
TRIP EXPERIENCE: I was impacted within 20 seconds with a kind of empathic, telepathic communication ability. I had spent the afternoon writing friends of a person who was a friend of a friend; he was murdered the other day, so I had him on my mind when cranking up the sally. As soon as I thought about him, I saw the murder scene in my mind's eye, clear as day, but it was from the perspective and mind of the murderer. I felt this heavy-ass feeling all over, like it was very difficult to hold up the gun, and aim it, then I was looking down the barrel of some kind of shotgun or rifle. I knew it was a teenager that killed the person, and I was psychically in his mind....feeling his feelings...I saw the difference between an inanimate object like a gun, that just sits there doing nothing, and actually blasting a person with it, and the almost instinctive reluctance to pull the trigger at someone else...I saw the gun be fired, but I didn't see the man actually get shot...I think I might have blocked myself from watching that part...then I snapped back in to the information flow, and I felt the terrible grief, agony, regret of the killer, I saw him running away, I saw him thinking about being locked up, knew that he didn't go there to kill the person, just rob him...I saw the person crying and regretting his actions....it felt like the murderer was going crazy with regret....
...I was being pulled down in negative, crazy thoughts by focusing on that, so I had to immediately refocus. Jerking back to this reality, I stopped looking at the images playing in front of me like a video. I was ready for my second dose. I smoked a very small amount, and it simply augmented the feelings I was already having....I sat for a few minutes staring at an astral doorway I saw in front of me, then went for the third dosing. I used the same amount as the first bolus dose - a fairly small pinch. After I dosed with that, my consciousness seemed to blow open. I started looking at pictures of the person who had died that were on the Net, along with pictures of his friends....when I looked at them, energy auras appeared around their images and their pictures became 3-D, like I could stick my hand into the computer screen and pick them up.
At that point, I strongly felt the presence of the man who died - along with his best friend, who had crossed over before him. His picture started animating itself, and I felt my spirit Self being pulled out towards his image...my mind started jamming with thoughts not of my own making - I could feel the spirits sending love to me. I could feel how happy they were to be back together again. When I was communicating with them, it felt like I was talking to only one spirit - although I knew for certain there were two...I saw that they were so well connected, loved one another so much, that either one could speak for the other.
I saw kind of a vision play out directly in front of me; I saw a young black dude holding a big pillow to his face, crying into it. I asked if that was his stickman. I got the impression that it was. I told them that I loved and cared about them, and their friends and family left behind, and that anything I can do to help them, I will, always. The dude said that "you're part of our family now Matt" and I said something like, "I really appreciate it, I am honored actually for you to welcome me like that"....
I decided I wanted to go out and take a ride in the car, to celebrate with them, to celebrate him going Home to the Spirit World at last....I chilled out for a while longer, to the point I knew I could drive just fine. I had come down quite a bit, but I still could clearly feel & see those two with me...
...I just started riding around in the car, blasting all kinds of music, and laughing and smiling smiles of absolute love and joy....I could clearly see the two friends in my car with me, chilling and hanging out. Thoughts just kept on pouring into my consciousness...out of nowhere I started hysterically laughing - with a flash of in-sight I suddenly saw that grief was almost laughable - we here in the physical have "forgotten" where we come from, and forgotten that we have always been, and will always be...no matter what...I could understand people who have forgotten their eternal Selves crying and grieving over someone's death - but the fact that these two spirits were so, so joyful, so absolutely thrilled to be Home, and hanging out with each other again, and living lives of ecstasy, of pure love and joy....how can anyone grieve for that? How could you be upset once you see how happy "dead" people are....??
....on the way back to my house I thanked the spirits for everything they had done for me, and thanked them for coming through....I told them that what happened that night with them was the best Christmas present I had ever received in my whole life - and I meant every word.....unlike physical gifts that will be used & thrown away or lost or forgotten, I received an eternal gift of love, of inspiration, of true beauty....I saw the meaning of true friendship, brotherhood...
...and I thanked Ms Sally for being the tool that assisted me in gaining that truth, that insight...
Thank all of you for listening to this story - please let me know what you think....I would greatly appreciate any insight any of you might have.....for real....
In peace, in harmony, in true love,
Matt
I wanted to write again and tell you all about what happened last night.
PREPARATIONS: Used 30x. For the initial bolus dose, I used a fairly small pinch in a nice bowl, and smoked very hot as usual. For a new test, I decided to use several other smaller doses independently loaded & dosed over a 10-15 minute period.
SET & SETTING: I was sitting in front of my computer, looking at photographs of a "dead" person I knew from around my city and listening to the rap music he had written & performed in this life.
TRIP EXPERIENCE: I was impacted within 20 seconds with a kind of empathic, telepathic communication ability. I had spent the afternoon writing friends of a person who was a friend of a friend; he was murdered the other day, so I had him on my mind when cranking up the sally. As soon as I thought about him, I saw the murder scene in my mind's eye, clear as day, but it was from the perspective and mind of the murderer. I felt this heavy-ass feeling all over, like it was very difficult to hold up the gun, and aim it, then I was looking down the barrel of some kind of shotgun or rifle. I knew it was a teenager that killed the person, and I was psychically in his mind....feeling his feelings...I saw the difference between an inanimate object like a gun, that just sits there doing nothing, and actually blasting a person with it, and the almost instinctive reluctance to pull the trigger at someone else...I saw the gun be fired, but I didn't see the man actually get shot...I think I might have blocked myself from watching that part...then I snapped back in to the information flow, and I felt the terrible grief, agony, regret of the killer, I saw him running away, I saw him thinking about being locked up, knew that he didn't go there to kill the person, just rob him...I saw the person crying and regretting his actions....it felt like the murderer was going crazy with regret....
...I was being pulled down in negative, crazy thoughts by focusing on that, so I had to immediately refocus. Jerking back to this reality, I stopped looking at the images playing in front of me like a video. I was ready for my second dose. I smoked a very small amount, and it simply augmented the feelings I was already having....I sat for a few minutes staring at an astral doorway I saw in front of me, then went for the third dosing. I used the same amount as the first bolus dose - a fairly small pinch. After I dosed with that, my consciousness seemed to blow open. I started looking at pictures of the person who had died that were on the Net, along with pictures of his friends....when I looked at them, energy auras appeared around their images and their pictures became 3-D, like I could stick my hand into the computer screen and pick them up.
At that point, I strongly felt the presence of the man who died - along with his best friend, who had crossed over before him. His picture started animating itself, and I felt my spirit Self being pulled out towards his image...my mind started jamming with thoughts not of my own making - I could feel the spirits sending love to me. I could feel how happy they were to be back together again. When I was communicating with them, it felt like I was talking to only one spirit - although I knew for certain there were two...I saw that they were so well connected, loved one another so much, that either one could speak for the other.
I saw kind of a vision play out directly in front of me; I saw a young black dude holding a big pillow to his face, crying into it. I asked if that was his stickman. I got the impression that it was. I told them that I loved and cared about them, and their friends and family left behind, and that anything I can do to help them, I will, always. The dude said that "you're part of our family now Matt" and I said something like, "I really appreciate it, I am honored actually for you to welcome me like that"....
I decided I wanted to go out and take a ride in the car, to celebrate with them, to celebrate him going Home to the Spirit World at last....I chilled out for a while longer, to the point I knew I could drive just fine. I had come down quite a bit, but I still could clearly feel & see those two with me...
...I just started riding around in the car, blasting all kinds of music, and laughing and smiling smiles of absolute love and joy....I could clearly see the two friends in my car with me, chilling and hanging out. Thoughts just kept on pouring into my consciousness...out of nowhere I started hysterically laughing - with a flash of in-sight I suddenly saw that grief was almost laughable - we here in the physical have "forgotten" where we come from, and forgotten that we have always been, and will always be...no matter what...I could understand people who have forgotten their eternal Selves crying and grieving over someone's death - but the fact that these two spirits were so, so joyful, so absolutely thrilled to be Home, and hanging out with each other again, and living lives of ecstasy, of pure love and joy....how can anyone grieve for that? How could you be upset once you see how happy "dead" people are....??
....on the way back to my house I thanked the spirits for everything they had done for me, and thanked them for coming through....I told them that what happened that night with them was the best Christmas present I had ever received in my whole life - and I meant every word.....unlike physical gifts that will be used & thrown away or lost or forgotten, I received an eternal gift of love, of inspiration, of true beauty....I saw the meaning of true friendship, brotherhood...
...and I thanked Ms Sally for being the tool that assisted me in gaining that truth, that insight...
Thank all of you for listening to this story - please let me know what you think....I would greatly appreciate any insight any of you might have.....for real....
In peace, in harmony, in true love,
Matt
