My High

[No-Key]

I thought I should post this because I don't know if it is peculiar or not; if it is, then I have come up with something uncommon at least, and if it isn't, then I can stop worrying.

Anyway, when I smoke weed, almost invariably, I wind up becoming a better person. It isn't just me either, people TELL me that weed has made me a better person in a lot of ways. Allow me to explain.

I never get smooth trips. I haven't gotten a relaxing high in over a year now, in fact, I don't even get really heavy physical experiences either.
What I get, is the most depressing introspective experiences of my life. I CAN'T smoke every day, for example, because it would probably get me clinical.

The up side to this, is that I don't feel as bad about being able to solve little problems that I've been trying not to confront for so long.

Let me give you an example:
Last week, I got high, and when I was walking around the city, I realized that I don't express love in healthy ways. I have a mechanical relationship to my family, when it shouldn't be so, as they are absolutely wonderful to me. Since I got this little revelation, I have been making real steps towards having a healthier relationship with my family.
I also realized this difficulty in emotional expression was what probably holds me back in friendships and romance as well.

That's just one experience and one conclusion.

Other improvements that I've made since smoking more weed: More regular showers and cleanliness in general, I go to the gym, my grades have improved, I've been able to socialize better, I take more pride in my appearance, and yet, I feel more meek and humble than I did when I had these flaws, I realized I need to get a car, and I've been a lot more relaxed.

I attribute all of these changes and improvements to things I have realized only when I smoked weed.
Maybe I give it too much credit, but it isn't like the problems weren't there for a long time before I started smoking, and it isn't like they were just solving themselves.

I still wish I could get relaxing highs, but instead they just put me terribly on edge. I see all of my flaws and how to change them, but its still not fun. I keep doing it because of the insights it affords me, and I guess I view it in a religious sense like that...

I was just wondering, does this happen for many others?

 

[Jahvisions]

I don't think marihuana is funny. It's a spiritual herb that gives good meditation and changes your philosophy on things. I guess that every person reacts slightly different to it but I believe that a lot of people use it in a wrong way. Maybe that's a big problem with drugs. I see often at one hand people who smoke sigaretes, drink alcohol, coffee and are addictive to medicines and tell you that drugs are bad and that the never take drugs. At the other hand you have people more openminded to it but using their body to experiment with every substance without thinking how they really can improve their life. People should now that drugs is not a game and that they are serious business. I believe that people should use mind-expanding drugs to think critical about the world and their life without losing contact with reality.

 

[silv]

I don't think marihuana is funny. It's a spiritual herb that gives good meditation and changes your philosophy on things. I guess that every person reacts slightly different to it but I believe that a lot of people use it in a wrong way. Maybe that's a big problem with drugs. I see often at one hand people who smoke sigaretes, drink alcohol, coffee and are addictive to medicines and tell you that drugs are bad and that the never take drugs. At the other hand you have people more openminded to it but using their body to experiment with every substance without thinking how they really can improve their life. People should now that drugs is not a game and that they are serious business. I believe that people should use mind-expanding drugs to think critical about the world and their life without losing contact with reality.

I think marihuana can be a fun herb. In the right circumstances (a nice dnb party or just a comfy setting with some friends) it can make me very social and it does enhance the fun for me. Is it only that? No ofcourse not, it's also as you say a spiritual herb which can give you major insights and help you meditate.

 

[Stupide]

I was just wondering, does this happen for many others?

I can't say I don't recognise anything you said. The introspective part of your experience seems a bit familiar to me. However, my experiences with that kind of introspection on cannabis are not very frequent. Most of the time i'm just relaxing, being creative or just lazy. :wink:
But hey, if you don't like your experiences with cannabis, quit smoking. But if you like the insights, as you apparently do, what's the problem?

 

[Guest]

i think i got your point...but i must say that you shouldn't worry. if the problems solve themselves, it is because of you, but if the week triggered that...then, everything is ok! perhaps with weed you learnt to respect time, and that every moment just passes once.
i don't get that feelings with cannabis...i just talk a lot alone, and laugh a lot just with the things i think and say out loud. now, try to imagine this and tell me it isn't amusing!
but again, you may get introspective if you are not comfortable with yourself!