Little Jesus Insanity (Salvia + Prayer)

[Schwanke668]

Component A: Jesus
Component B: Salvia Divinorum
Component A: Dosage. 20 Minutes of intense prayer around the concept "Blow my mind".
Component B: Dosage. One large bowl (corn cob pipe actually) of SD to be smoked "as instructed" over the next hour or so.

Background: I have a low tolerance for any altering substance and so SD affects me even at low dosages though not in the same way as a high dosage for an normal person. Ive already been told I wont actually know how much I smoked and how far apart until after the trip but for the moment I expect to have high and low dosages at varying intervals.

My pre-trip has already begun. This happened in college a lot. If I was going to do something I would start to trip before I did it. Back in college once the pre-trip started I knew I was doomed because I knew that that meant that I was going to do it whether I wanted to or not. Fate/destiny/whatever had already been signed sealed and delivered.

This pre-trip has the characteristics of an organized chaos. I went to weigh the amount of salvia I was going to smoke and remember picking up the scale and I found the scale over by my desk but have absolutely no recolection of taking the scale over to the desk yet I specifically remember taking my salvia stash and tools over to the desk and I know that I only made one trip. Somehow I carried the scale without knowing. The scale disappeared from my consciosness while everything else remained.

I got over to the desk and tried to weigh it and realized that my scale doesnt go into fine enough granularity to be able to weigh the small amounts and then realized the 'hole' in my brain was my mind telling me dont even bother taking the scale it wont work but I erased the taking process but did not initiate the put it down and leave it on the shelf process.

Misfire!

Currently I am sliding between consciosnessnodes referenced somewhere between a self awakening moment and an edge of insanity moment. Somewhere during the point in which I prayed for Jesus to blow my mind I realized that I was praying for him to tame to the edge of insanity but to not even shed one molecule of person over the edge.

As I was praying I was envisioning myself turning into this white liquid pouring out of the center of a fountain along the outside of a sphere that was containing me. I realized that the sphere was my sanity consciosness and that I was spreading out evenly across the entire internal surface of the limitation of my sanity.

Currently I feel water and bubbles flowing up out of the floor over my feet and I can see my arms moving away from me at lighting speed spreading further and faster then I have ever seen anything move before.

I do see some shapes in the distance, some cubes and circles and triangles but three dimensional, I remember them from another trip but I will have to locate that log to see if I can figure out what they were from.

Ok. I think its time to finally smoke and see what happens. First hit. Time to groove.

 

[Schwanke668]

A.. ccaa.. ccordering to my calculations. Calculations. I have smoked 5 (five) hits of a quadrian depth of 4 with a 3 on each end.

Wtf that means I have no idea lol.

I have that funky binaural doohicky hour long dreamy state cd thingie from the other post in my ear phones and I'm on audio with my wife.

So far I saw the monitor melt and my face got real funky in the mirror when I went to the can.

Can. Can.

Can you dig your man?

Wtf is Stephen King doing in my head? lol.

I'm gettin some funky arse bodily responses like that sound track was causing ripples up and down my left arm and I keep loosing touch with my hands. I can see them in front of me and I am typing but its like they are flickering in and out of being a part of me. I feel as if I have a seperate brain pulse section of my psyche operating them and there is this binural firing of light pulses traveling back and forth between the two nodes as I dilathering the infuscator.

Hmm. Thats really purple. The thought that is. Everything that I just typed is really purple.

I kinda like this. Though at the moment I feel a dripping coming from my left eye but its not real its just a pigment of my imagination. There is that dang purple again lol.

That might be the eggplant from the internet before. And after. Left and right. Chaos intertwined and obsucated by shere oblitheration.

Think its time to smoke some more. I *THINK*. Cant quite tell. I can see the consciosness node that is "the perfect time and place to smoke salvia" and I was able to pull off the piece that says "this trip" but when I try to access it it moves. Heh. It just mophed into those red and blue and green shapes the triangle, circle and square but 3d.

Someday one of these years like in a minute or two I should try and figure out if they really are called spheres, cubes and pyramids.

 

[Schwanke668]

The monitor is breathing.

 

[Schwanke668]

Just made this. Hope it fits.

If I focus I can make it move hehe.

 

[Schwanke668]

Two notes to note.

1) I seem to be having temperature flucations. The water coming out of the tap was a lot warmer then the last time I was in there and there is no reason for it. It was set completely to all cold and this time of year its ice cold from being under the ground. I ran a full glass and drank it and it was lukish warm but still coolish.

2) I sat down in my chair and put the headphones back on with the subliminal sound and had a flooding sensation of thought. First it was jarring like wtf is that then it went into a more peacefull flow. I was hit with the memory that the sound had been affecting me subconsciosly the entire time before and I had no recolection of time. Sure I could go back and read the post times but what fun is that lol. Then as I settled from the jarring I was able to get back into allowing to be right on the edge of my consciosness.

Ok. Think I'm gunna smoke some more hehe.

Ohh before I forget there is defintely a chaos factor. Went to go downstairs and forgot my cellphone to log my food so I switched to go to the bathroom which was where I was suposed to go in the first place. Then I went and used it without turning the light on and realized I was seeing in the dark but then realized I wasnt seeing in the dark I was just temporarily blind but then I was not blind just looking through different eyes then my physical eyes and that was when I realized i was in two places at once and even though my body was using the can my mind and my spirit were out somewhere else translating things.

Now to try and get back to smoking lol.

 

[Schwanke668]

Smoked some more. Feel dreamy. God's suggesting it might be time to switch gears out of this subconscios mind numbing stuff hehe and kick some psytrance. Now if I can only operate a shout cast lol. (Wow. I actually felt myself put that space between shout and cast. I went to type shoutcast and typed shout cast and felt this space bar flow up my arm and into my psyche like it was saying to me. PRESS ME YOU SON OF A MOTHERLESS GOAT!) Glad I did. Not sure I would want to see the universe afterward if I didnt.

 

[Schwanke668]

Groovin in altered realites the cosmos redfines the defintion of new understanding. God says unto us be fruitful and multiply yet we are all impotent to the translation of before unto after. Escape yourself, free your mind, experience reality from the otherside of pure understanding. Worship and obey. <---- New Facebook Status

 

[Schwanke668]

Interacting with the cosmos my mind transforms my reality into a waveform that propagates through both space and time. My interdimensiality subconsciosly distorts my intertwined multiplexor but my interactivity quotient translates new itterations of an old potato.

Why then does reality and illusion collide amidst the self destructive forces of human desire? We seek to learn yet we do not accept what we have to say to ourselves unless it really changes our desires into will.

Will you be my friend? Or do you understand that interactivity in the consciosness of time is aware only when disullsion distorts thermonuclear weapons.

Why then does..

Why then does..

Why then doesnt it seam to make sense to say why then does?

Who knows what answer will lie beyond the veil of itineration and ignorizing altered spaces of parallel dimensions of peanut butter.

Create. Control. Divide. Conquer and obey. Experience beyond illuminati references and differential equations and connect with the cosmos at a galactic level that is so pure, so divine and so simple it is contained within 1.

The number one. So simple. So unique. Stands tall. Stand together. Stands divine.

Divine and conquer. Oblitterate and obey. Experience reality through the eyes of a child forever altering its own mind through self referential integrity outcroppings.

Who will find me? Who will loose me? Is there an end? Is there a begining?

Did you know you were lead to read this line of text? if you did not see it you would not know it was there yet now that you know it is here you cannot escape it. It has lodged itself into your mind as an expression of pure thought.

But then again, what do I know? I am just a peanut.

Dont talk to me. I'm an eggplant.

Jelly. Jelly.

Oober Fish!

 

[Schwanke668]

Aparently God wants to DJ lol. My media player started all by itself and auto loaded that funky mental rhythm thing from before. Now I have psytrance and that stuff in my ears. Scrambled Eggs!

 

[Schwanke668]

Just halucinated a spark coming out of my light switch in the bathroom. I went to turn off the light and instead of touching it my mind reached over and this flame shot out of it and melted into my arm. I can remember this happening years ago when I was a kid. It was like my arm was on fire then it went numb. I remember electrocuting myself as a kid but that was only for a split second and had nothing to do with a light switch.

I still have no idea if I actually turned off the light switch or not and I am not in the mood to find out lol.

 

[Schwanke668]

Literalism and legality. Proofing the concept while ignoring the idiocy.

Bend your mind, freedom from rhythm, chaos and conformity intertwined.

Beatin the bat box with a bastard of bodenciality.

Just tuned into that spiritplant radio website in the music section. I knew I had not read that post for a reason. I left that post just sitting there thinking. Its not time yet. Its not time yet. Then I was bummin around the forums and "The Voice Inside" said, go to the music section and read the post. The post. Post modern erection. Apocalypic election. Bilingual detection. Unilateral disection.

So I have a psytrance station, spiritradio thingie and that emergancy broadcast test tone on crack thing goin at once with my wife chiming in on skype randomly lol. I think I need to smoke more just to keep up.

 

[Jamapricotica]

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[Schwanke668]

Oh hell yeah. lol.

Got that runnin in the other window while I write this. A little duality mind bending.

Squish!

Just had a jelly creamcheeze bagel. Oh that was such a ride lol.

Started out rather straight forward with a lot of programatic control but then things just went over the edge when I actually tried to eat it.

For one thingi the jelly was sliding all over the cream cheeze and after about the fourth bite it was all over my hands. Then my hands were changing temperate hot and cold and the bagel tasted like it was frozen but it was actually room temperature.

Then I looked down at the bagel and the bagel and cream cheeze and jelly had melted forming a pool of molten metal in the shape of a moving glacier. Then the entire thing turned into a space ship for a split second and the UFO landed in my mind and then started to over react to the glutious maximus out of no where.

I like aphex twin lol.

I forgot about them.

Right now I keep having flashes of thinking there is jelly on my hands and its getting everywhere. Colors are starting to trail and move around a little.

Btw, some time before I halucinated 12:30 lol. I looked at a count down timer in one of my games and it aid 12 minutes and 30 seconds. Then I looked at the clock in windows and it said 12:03 am. Then I looked back at the timer and it said 11:30 minutes and I KNOW it wasnt 42 minutes in between lol. (Though that is the answer to life the universe and everything so maybe it was and I was only haluciniting sitting there for 30 seconds. Maybe in actuality I left the cosmos and traveled around the universe in a giant squishy purple peanut. You never can tell with kids these days. With their hair and their clothes.)

 

[Schwanke668]

Became spontanously productive and used some twist tie wire to modify my pipe to keep it from falling over. Of course if I look at it the right way it looks like a man standing with his arms out and his legs crossed. Dual purpose? Subliminal mesage?