Ego death from dxm?

[Nanosage]

I believe I experienced what everyone explains as ego death on dxm? I have never fully tripped so hard that anything as inspirational as an ego death has happened.. I've done lsd twice now once with 2 tabs, the other time with 3. I never really did get anything to important out of those, frankly I think the acid sucked. It definitely worked and is a great drug but thats not what this is about. Point is I haven't experienced ego death. But last night on dxm, I might have, maybe I'm wrong? I remember laying there and everything just made complete sense.. I remember recalling every single immature thing I have done in the past two months, most of which I had completely forgotten about. Then started appreciating all the small things I realized true adults actually care about that I always thought passed, like taking your shoes off at the door.. (Not really one of my thoughts, but same concept)

The thing is, I went right back to normal.. It was no long-lasting thought in my head, its gone now. I completely forget the entire thing.. I'm not sure if ego death is supposed to be that insignificant, I really doubt it is. But it kinda makes me mad that I completely overlooked a really good life lesson lol

I was on 2200mg so its possible it was an ego death I'm guessing haha

 

[Crimzen]

i dont think this was ego death, it just sounds like a trip to me..
if you're interested in such a thing maybe its good to do some reading about it first?
then you'll have a better idea of what it is if it does happen
first you need to understand and interpret 'ego' and also the 'death' isnt the same as a death as most people may see it
im no expert, i've never truly experienced 'ego death' as far as i'm aware but i've read about it and i think i have an abstract understanding of the concept

 

[at0micfreqz]

2,200 mgs would have made me lost my mind. when i experienced ego death it was very intense. i remember i was sitting and staring at a tv but i was in a daze, and couldnt make much sense of things. i started feeling really out of place, and at a point i remember i was having a horrible feeling like something was about to happen. but it wasnt happening. the feeling of waiting for something huge to happen. and then i greyed out and was having no thoughts at all i couldnt really see anything at all the last thing i distinctly remember was not being able to make out shapes or form thoughts. then i was laying down awake. and didnt sleep intil the next afternoon. that was when i decided that dxm is a horrible thing. but crazy

 

[sydmarissa]

I'd like to start by saying, i am totally sober.
Now, to receive the medal of 'dxm has squashed me' it is not about a large number of milligrams. been there done that. and quit. years ago. then started again due to my own personal belief in a "Curse".. which i let go of recently.
Not sure about ego death. But i Do know that god will touch you in a park, it's almost sexual. It's like being a kid and gettin touched funny. not good. Eventually you look into the mirror and can't see yourself anymore. The cool "trippy" things you used to like about yourself are now sad. a pathetic state of existence. Now you wish your eyes were pointing the same way. Now you wish you could feel the emotion of love again. You become completely aware of how disgusting you are. Every thing you say and do is criticized. You stand outside looking in. Judgments are placed. you want to run and hide but you cant hide from yourself. The God-part of your brain is now SO blown up, that people think you mean god as in theistic. but it's not that. It's the part of your braaains. And fuck if i know what it's doing. God's brain is a lonely place. A boring place. A film is over you, you can only experience parts of reality, you see the bright happy flower, but you can only sort of experience it. I'm sure these effects will wear off soon... I've been trying to get my life going again.
also this month is the death anniversary of my friend who died in '07 on CCC. So i'm in quite a loop, with mirror-dilemma and despair. hooray.
now all you go have a good ol time at the dxm-diarrhea-rave. On the couch, that's where its at. us dxm kids don't need no club or flashy lights. ;] buh bye
ps. im pretty sure this isnt ego death. maybe its just ego diarrhea.

 

[Nanosage]

Syd! You! You have it completely right, since I posted this I completely kicked the dxm.. Well not completely and its a FUCKING ISSUE. Me and 3 of my friends, or wait. 2 of them, john and david. (real first names who cares.) We VOUGED to not touch the shit in a few months just to let the tolerance go down because its just not the same anymore. and I honestly don't even think we can go a week. We haven't yet... Its fucking disgusting shit. All my actions are wrong, people point it out all the time. Our brains don't even work like normal peoples it feels like.. Its like being under the cloud of anti depressants or soemthing.. Its just fucking sick. I hear the shits getting illeglized in Missouri soon, thank fucking god.

You'd think we'd be able to control ourselves? We can with every other drug. It just the fucking dxm. I've done heroin, I've done coke many times, I've done meth. none of which are ANYTHING compared to the shit that dxm puts you through..

How come pcp and special k dont do this to you?