Define your view/philosophy

[mrvitorsky]

I am blank
I am noting at all
My head i try
I try so hard
To run my head across the ground
Till I taste Iron
N i cant see no one else around.

Look look at that
Why do any of us care
Just wanna stare at pretty images
till they run in some kinda scare

Im fear
im standing here

People so foolish
people so egotistical
I am people.... shit
I am so fucking illogical

N i listen to jack and dean
Trying to get all the words
Slide that wit into my jeans
Why
whats the god damn point

Fuck It i need to get high
Till I cant feel nothing no more
I feel nothing no more
It feels so great this sickly sweet
mindless bore

Im just feeling nothing else
Im just thinking nothing else

Cockroaches of waste

But dont get me wrong so much beauty is there
So much waiting there
in pretty eyes
but they're for assholes lies
at least thats all ive seen...

why am i acting so helpless?
why do I hate till my stomach is wretching?

 

[Psyolopher]

You're obviosly depressed, and you probarly smoke to much weed.
If so, dont do it in periods of your life when u feel like crap.

Dont beat yourself down man.
I've gone through hell myself, still am...But all is coming closer.
I am realising now so many things through a positive view.
It takes time, esp if you have alot of bad energy.

I've already died, but now i am looking forward to life again.
No matter how much i define it, it gets worse.
We humans are emotional beeings, and we need love to function normally.
I will trust that sense now, not my hardcore analytical logical sense.
I need change.

Define my philosophy?
Well, about what.
My perception of life?

Im just so happy that mostly everything is a huge mystery.
And i am going to do big things.
This might seem abit stupid/childish, but im not ever going to conform.
im not ever going to live a A4 Christian piece of delusional materialistic shit life.
Im going to live within the Mystery, with alittle bit of Love at my side.
I feed pleasure on what i dont know.

edit:
btw i often feel like this:

But the tunnel and its thorns are an illusion really, its basically all in my head.

 

[figment]

Happiness is a road, not a place.

 

[IJesusChrist]

Figment, I like that. Alot. Very good alot.

The way I feel, Right now, right here, the past weeks:

How do I fix myself? Why am I asking how I fix myself, I am only broken if I think I am. By asking myself to fix myself is the only problem, so I have a problem by asking to fix myself, whats the problem? Being ask to be fixed. So how do I fix it?

Stop.

I wonder what I'm going to do today.

--- The mind and its paradoxes.

 

[????????]

my pain is constant and sharp but i do hope for a better world for everyone. in fact, i want my pain to serve as an example to others. i want everyone to comprehend and learn. i admit this because i had a catharsis. my punishment continues as i gain deeper knowledge of myself, i am a reflection to others and knowledge can be extracted from my telling.

has this confession meant something?

 

[magickmumu]

I don´t try to associate myself to much with hate and fear. I want to be a optimist.
We do not control the actions of others. We do control our own actions.
We control what we put in our body´s and minds.
This is where we need to start if we want to change something.
For me it´s like standing on a tree way road.
I am free to make my own choice. To go up or down or stay right in the middle. I am aware that it´s not always like this.
I can think of plenty of events that could put me out of balance.
However I always try to keep my balance. (I am not saying I always succeed.)

I have the feeling that wallowing in negativity is a waste of time.
So stay high and stay happy everyone.

 

[ararat]

^I can identify myself with that a lot. couldn't have said it any better.

I can't really express myself, at least that's what I belief. I often write a post, but then I just close the window because I don't like the post/think it's unnecessary. for every post I write I delete 5.

 

[Forkbender]

Really?

Don't be shy!

 

[ararat]

you're right, I'll try not to be that shy anymore. expect more posts by me

and I'll start right away with this one, I just caught myself thinking about whether to post that one or not

 

[Brugmansia]

 

[mrvitorsky]

The emptiness
Its no feeling its reality
I say look inside and see white
Porcelain walls shining like egg shells

The porcelain walls of reality
Everything seems so surreal

The game I say
The game
Reality show
surreality
Every thought a product of another's thought
Never your, own
and if you don't believe me go deeper
Free will an illusion
And communication a hokes

Its hard to say
My head must seem like a joke

Getting high not just drugs
Just emptying my mind
Letting the thoughts pass by
Just twiddling my thumbs
Wasting away
Cause to waste away
Is the most sensible way
When you realize how useless this all is

Drive only a tool of ego and hurt
But so necessary
yet so unnecessary

Thought only a tool of vanity
communication a tool to beg for reassurance
Cause connecting is simply finding some one who agrees

Ill expand latter more.
I want you all to expand and tell me of your life view please.
Cause opinions on what we call life is endless.

 

[Tmartwelve]

"I" try not to think of "I" so much--I've gotten caught up in thinking about myself a lot of times, and now I'm more focused on everything as a whole.

Basically I want to contribute to reducing suffering, expanding consciousness.

Right now I'm kind of wrestling between: is it more beneficial to practice passivity (doing not-doing), or striving to do compassionate action? Is it mutually exclusive? I don't know. I don't even know if I'm looking at it the right way

"I don't know" is also a theme in my philosophy lately

 

[magickmumu]

When there is a need to be passive be passive. When there is a need to act, act.
I don't see a duality there.

 

[magickmumu]

If nothing matters. If that's the case why stay down ?
When i think of a white room i think of painting on the walls.
Life is like a blank canvas.
Do with it what you will.
(words of Crowley come to mind :wink: )

The upside of being down is things can only get better.

 

[IJesusChrist]

I do believe bitterness propogates bitterness, just as life propogates life, and of course... Love propogates love.

Why they don't just expand into one over powerful energy, but stay balanced is of ying and yang, but I don't understand. I wish it could all be love.

I came to the conclusion when I was young that life is a sine-wave. You will always have ups and downs, no matter what... but you can always shift your entire wave up... or down.

I often think that the universe is alot, ALOT, differnet than how we view it. I truly mean radically different. Easy example is, in reality, there are no colors.

Reality is inexperiencable, I suppose - yet somehow we can distinguish it. Vibrations and patterns, all alike, all pointing to some grand something. Some unification, some singularity, yet it will forever be unexplainable through language, intelligence, or knowledge because... we are all a product of it.

 

[Forkbender]

I came to the conclusion when I was young that life is a sine-wave. You will always have ups and downs, no matter what... but you can always shift your entire wave up... or down.

Or you can just look at the waves and watch the sun set.

 

[magickmumu]

Like Fork wrote. Sometimes you can sit back and just watch these waves without attachment to these waves.

 

[IJesusChrist]

I don't know how you guys do that, but I envy you at the moment.

 

[Psyolopher]

I stumbled upon some Theodore Kaczynski quotes, that might cheer you up.
Its nothing we dont already know, its just a good reminder.

"Our society tends to regard as a "sickness" any mode of thought or behavior that is inconvenient for the system, and this is plausible because when an individual doesn't fit into the system it causes pain to the individual as well as problems for the system. Thus the manipulation of an individual to adjust him to the system is seen as a "cure" for a "sickness" and therefore as good." - Theodore Kaczynski



"Imagine a society that subjects people to conditions that make them terribly unhappy, then gives them the drugs to take away their unhappiness. Science fiction? It is already happening to some extent in our own society. Instead of removing the conditions that make people depressed, modern society gives them antidepressant drugs.
In effect, antidepressants are a means of modifying an individual's internal state in such a way as to enable him to tolerate social conditions that he would otherwise find intolerable." - Theodore

 

[ararat]

I don't know how you guys do that, but I envy you at the moment.

even though it was most probably meant in another way, it's pretty easy, you sit down and watch the waves come to the shore and the sun set. ever watched the clouds move and transform? it's highly entertaining, I like that a lot.