I don't fear death when I think about it, but some people say that, ultimately, all fear is fear of death. it makes sense somehow, and thus I do have fear of death, because I am afraid of certain things.
maybe I have to discriminate between two types of fear I feel, there is a natural, protective fear, and the irrational, learned one. possibly they are one and the same, I can't really remember feeling the first one. edit: I just remembered what I felt when I came across a snake in thailand. it seemed natural to be afraid of snakes, I do want to survive after all.
my first and only ego-death experience gave me the feeling that death is something not to be afraid of, even though I worked hard against it before it happened. reflecting upon the experience, I came to the conclusion that there seems not to be such thing as death. fear of death is the fear to loose the image of yourself, the identification with something that you aren't really fears for its existence.
it's tempting to say that fear of snakes is a good thing, for you will flee and not get bitten, but be there death or not, you still will want to continue living and not die senselessly because of stepping on a snake. I like to see fear of death and the thrive to live as two separate things.
and if there really is death as the common view (that you absorb growing up in this culture) says - what does it matter right now? you are living now, and being afraid of something that is going to happen in the future won't give you the ability to fully live the moment, which is a most precious thing because it's the only thing that you have (or that is). life isn't there to be afraid of death all the time, and even less for fighting against that fear all the time.
I felt a bit like preaching wine and drinking water while writing this
