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[Clusterface]

Hello,
Ive recently stumbled upon this great website/forum. And figured i might as well introduce myself since i'll be lingering on.
I'm quite new at this, so here goes ...

Being diagnosed with clusterheadaches about 5 years ago, my life changed dramaticly, i discovered emotions i never felt before. Despair, fear, real pain. So obviously i've been looking for remedies this whole time, paying specialists to do their job. And it has made me realize more then before we live in a corrupt, hypocritical world.

Only one medicin i found was bang on instant pain relief, the imitrex injections which cost 90 euro for 2 shots if you don't have the proper paperwork. To get the proper paperwork you need to visit your neurologist to attain the paper, bring it to your health insurance, and wait for confirmation. All of this takes at least 4 weeks to do. And you'll only get 7x2 shots from one application form. So that's not even enough to last one month.

After doing some more research i read something about lsd/psylocibin being able to suppress a cluster (about 3 months). Giving relief untill the next one. Being a huge fan of psychedelics in my younger years, i decided to give it a go.

So here is my small TR:
I purchased some truffles (Atlantis), about 15gr i think. And brought some friends along for the ride. All have experiences with loads of drugs which include psychedelics. So me and 3 very close friends ventured into a park in a remote part of town relatively late. We all like tripping outdoors alot, for the natural feel.
We ate about half of the truffles before we left, i didnt eat for about 6hrs before so i arrived at my halfway point a lot faster then the others and got a little worried i would have no one to share my experience with...But soon enough everyone started to see and recognize what the hell i was on about
Then the fun began, we ate the rest of the truffles under a tree, imagining we're just eating the nuts that fell off it. It was the most natural feeling i ever had, being in touch with what really mathers, one with nature. We all had a wonderfull experience and really felt we shared something on a level we never thought was possible.
We wondered through the park some more and i noticed i just couldnt stop staring at the skye, seeing past it all, feeling so very tiny but loving every second of it. I started to let my mind wander about how great the universe is. I also felt a deep respect for nature and even my own body, i usually smoke shitloads of weed, but now i couldnt handle the smoke going through my body ... it felt really unnatural.
We had an awesome time at the playground in the park, there was this disc sorta flat on the ground, mounted, so it could spin while you lay on it. It gave me the most cool visual effects ive ever seen. Very chaotic and a bit frightening, but once you let go, it was amazing, seeing light shift and your whole perception of light/dark messed up. I love tripping at night, sometimes what you don't see is a lot more intreging then what you do see.

So what if this magical experience can take away to most intense pain you could ever imagine. It's been 5 days since my journey and i havent had a severe attack yet, ive stopped taking my meds as well on that day, just to make sure. I do sometimes have this feeling it's gonna come on, but i think it's just the fear talking.

I'll keep you up to date on how things progress, but if this is the answer then it proves again how flawed our "society" is. People shouldnt endure such pains if there are reliefs. Even if they are considered dangerous. I'm sick of ppl holding my hand telling me what's right and what's not. It's my life, my health, my pain, i'll deal with it ...

Bloody hell this turned out way bigger then intended.
If you have read it all -> Congratulations (and thanks )
Hope to see you soon!

 

[Bastiaan]

Flawed is a vast understatement..

Anyways, welcome! 8) sounds like you've found the right place

 

[Icelus]

Welcome!

I hope the clusterheadaches won't come back! Let us know about it.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Check this out: Is LSD good for you?

[quote:13e4x79u]Bob Wold doesn't seem like your typical acid tripper. A happily married 56-year-old contractor with four kids who lives the suburbs of Chicago, he had never considered taking psychedelic drugs until about 10 years ago. At the time, he was suffering from cluster headaches—known as “suicide

 

[Clusterface]

Amazing isnt it,
now it's been 15 days with no medication at all, and i still have the occasional headache. But it's a headache, not the type that forces you on your knees and makes you weep like a little baby. Just the headaches every other person has now and then.

I just can't tell you how it feels, all these years of pain, and especially knowing that this wouldnt go away for quite some time (whole adulthood) really fucked with my brain. But now, day by day, i feel like i may be back in control.

I'm still on the lookout for some LSD, but somehow i think shrooms are safer. Since you never know if it's really LSD without getting it tested. Maybe i'll get lucky and find someone thrustworthy that can supply me, since it's pretty damn cheap over here, or at least it was back in the year 2000. Millenium Hoffmans were everywhere back then. I think i payed only 5 euros.

 

[Forkbender]

Welcome, good to hear you have found something that helps.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Amazing isnt it,
now it's been 15 days with no medication at all, and i still have the occasional headache. But it's a headache, not the type that forces you on your knees and makes you weep like a little baby. Just the headaches every other person has now and then.

Good to hear that! If the psilocybin or the lysergic acid don't cut it, you could still try Motherwort (Leonurus cardiaca). The herb contains the alkaloid leonurine, which is a mild vasodilator and has a relaxing effect on smooth muscles. Or/and as a last-minute remedy you could try Ginger capsules (two or three at once at the onset of the headache).

See (for example): here and here.