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Neurotransmetteur
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hello all,
I am a long time reader of this forum and have recently come to understand that a community such as this thrives when we all participate. I am preparing for a psychedelic journey this friday night and would like to share what I am doing with the forum.
First, a little background: I am in my late twenties and a full time college student. I have been away from the Great Medicins for some time now (over a year and a half) in an attempt to respect them as they deserve. In my youth, through missuse of street quality sacraments (mostly e), I ripped away much of my ego. At the time this is what I though I wanted. A potent experience with mushrooms near the end of this period of my life brought the LOGOS and with it the message that I had been missusing these tools. I have always been spiritual, but drugs had become a far more rereational than even I had understood. I saw myself as hollow and torn apart rather than the egoless buddha I was so striving for.
The Teacher let me know in no uncertain terms that all I had learned was semantics and name games, psychological puns and new ways of catagorizing phenomenon. I needed to seek out what is true to me, and reshape myself in this Truth's image. Then, and only then, would I be ready for the psychedelic arts once again. (I will post a full report of this experience if any are interested)
So onto the present: I am now, I believe, ready to move on with my mental alchemical studies of the myself. I now come to hallucinagens with a reverance I have never possesed for them. I take them very seriously and wish to respect the sacraments. I have been actively meditating for eight or nine months now, I eat better and respect my body. I have also been reading every bit of psychedelic literature I could get my hands on and attending varied types of religeous services.
Two weekend my sister gave me a large bag of, as she put it, "Good" mushrooms. I was hesitant at first, falling back into a patterned behavior rather than analysing myself to see if I was ready. She gave them to me anyway and as I went home, I began to realize that this is exactly what I have been eaiting for. I am in a fairly transitional period (moving, finishing this year at the university) but I have never been better mentally. I am happy, healthy, and truly enjoy every day I have here on earth. after conversing with my wife-to-be we decided that this coming friday we would partake in a mushroom experience and that it would be a positive tool for us both as we move to a new (old, I have lived here in the past many years) city.
On saturday we made a weak tea of only two grams and me and my fiancee (we'll call her "B" for now) split the concoction. The 'shrooms had been described as "visual" but I had no idea. I verbalised my intentions as I drank the brew.
"I wish to refamiliarize myself with the landscape of the trytamine realms in order to gain the most from my coming experience."
B wanted to gauge their potency and get familiar with the body effects associated with mushrooms again, it had been a while.
Onset in less than fifteen minutes. My head heavy and there was a pressure eminating from my third eye. I still had tea left in my cup at this point and was shocked at how readily my homeostasis was altered. I gulped the rest of the tea down and laid back on my bed.
Twenty minutes later i am seeing aura and the soft complex geometry of light patterning off the lamps. Upon stepping outside, the dry browns and greens of the not yet perked up grass in the back yard appeared to be flowing like water. The trees in the distance bent and swayed in softly unnatural ways and a tunnel of light emerged from the forest filling me with the unimaginable joy at creation that usually requires hours of meditation to achieve.
The effects were short lived, two hours later I was just peacefully blissed out and lost in contemplation. B only drank half of her tea and heard crickets singing to her for a half an hour. All in all these mushrooms were EXTREMELY potent, even at the one gram dosage.
My Plans for friday night: We have already cleaned our house to near spotlessness. I have been staging up a fast for a few days now. Tues - no fried foods, Wed - no prepared foods (including prepackaged anything), thur - no meat or dairy, fri - nothing but lemon water. I wish to create a no hostile invoronment for the spirit of the mushroom to inhabit. I have told B that the tv will not be on for the duration, we have planned out a musical soundscape however. I will be consuming five grams, B will consume three and a half. My verbalised intentions will be "To realign myself with the 'Self' and to truly understand my heart's goals and desires for me in this world" I hope to integrate the learnings I have made in the last year into a working, organic, spiritually being that can function within as well as without.
Just wanted to put all of this out there, any advice, comments, I'd love to hear them. I will post in this thread once I have re-integrated on saturday. Thanks for reading this, you lend my strenght by connecting with me through this new technology. About 9:00 pm EST I will commense on my pschonautical journey on the seas of the self. Any who are spiritually inclined, a prayed for my passage would be appreciated.
Peace.
I am a long time reader of this forum and have recently come to understand that a community such as this thrives when we all participate. I am preparing for a psychedelic journey this friday night and would like to share what I am doing with the forum.
First, a little background: I am in my late twenties and a full time college student. I have been away from the Great Medicins for some time now (over a year and a half) in an attempt to respect them as they deserve. In my youth, through missuse of street quality sacraments (mostly e), I ripped away much of my ego. At the time this is what I though I wanted. A potent experience with mushrooms near the end of this period of my life brought the LOGOS and with it the message that I had been missusing these tools. I have always been spiritual, but drugs had become a far more rereational than even I had understood. I saw myself as hollow and torn apart rather than the egoless buddha I was so striving for.
The Teacher let me know in no uncertain terms that all I had learned was semantics and name games, psychological puns and new ways of catagorizing phenomenon. I needed to seek out what is true to me, and reshape myself in this Truth's image. Then, and only then, would I be ready for the psychedelic arts once again. (I will post a full report of this experience if any are interested)
So onto the present: I am now, I believe, ready to move on with my mental alchemical studies of the myself. I now come to hallucinagens with a reverance I have never possesed for them. I take them very seriously and wish to respect the sacraments. I have been actively meditating for eight or nine months now, I eat better and respect my body. I have also been reading every bit of psychedelic literature I could get my hands on and attending varied types of religeous services.
Two weekend my sister gave me a large bag of, as she put it, "Good" mushrooms. I was hesitant at first, falling back into a patterned behavior rather than analysing myself to see if I was ready. She gave them to me anyway and as I went home, I began to realize that this is exactly what I have been eaiting for. I am in a fairly transitional period (moving, finishing this year at the university) but I have never been better mentally. I am happy, healthy, and truly enjoy every day I have here on earth. after conversing with my wife-to-be we decided that this coming friday we would partake in a mushroom experience and that it would be a positive tool for us both as we move to a new (old, I have lived here in the past many years) city.
On saturday we made a weak tea of only two grams and me and my fiancee (we'll call her "B" for now) split the concoction. The 'shrooms had been described as "visual" but I had no idea. I verbalised my intentions as I drank the brew.
"I wish to refamiliarize myself with the landscape of the trytamine realms in order to gain the most from my coming experience."
B wanted to gauge their potency and get familiar with the body effects associated with mushrooms again, it had been a while.
Onset in less than fifteen minutes. My head heavy and there was a pressure eminating from my third eye. I still had tea left in my cup at this point and was shocked at how readily my homeostasis was altered. I gulped the rest of the tea down and laid back on my bed.
Twenty minutes later i am seeing aura and the soft complex geometry of light patterning off the lamps. Upon stepping outside, the dry browns and greens of the not yet perked up grass in the back yard appeared to be flowing like water. The trees in the distance bent and swayed in softly unnatural ways and a tunnel of light emerged from the forest filling me with the unimaginable joy at creation that usually requires hours of meditation to achieve.
The effects were short lived, two hours later I was just peacefully blissed out and lost in contemplation. B only drank half of her tea and heard crickets singing to her for a half an hour. All in all these mushrooms were EXTREMELY potent, even at the one gram dosage.
My Plans for friday night: We have already cleaned our house to near spotlessness. I have been staging up a fast for a few days now. Tues - no fried foods, Wed - no prepared foods (including prepackaged anything), thur - no meat or dairy, fri - nothing but lemon water. I wish to create a no hostile invoronment for the spirit of the mushroom to inhabit. I have told B that the tv will not be on for the duration, we have planned out a musical soundscape however. I will be consuming five grams, B will consume three and a half. My verbalised intentions will be "To realign myself with the 'Self' and to truly understand my heart's goals and desires for me in this world" I hope to integrate the learnings I have made in the last year into a working, organic, spiritually being that can function within as well as without.
Just wanted to put all of this out there, any advice, comments, I'd love to hear them. I will post in this thread once I have re-integrated on saturday. Thanks for reading this, you lend my strenght by connecting with me through this new technology. About 9:00 pm EST I will commense on my pschonautical journey on the seas of the self. Any who are spiritually inclined, a prayed for my passage would be appreciated.
Peace.
