a little bit confused...

[Brakkie]

Ok then I want to try shrooms in a couple of weeks. I talked with my gf about it and asked if she wanted to try it with me. She completely disagreed blablabla

The problem is that I've had a depression about a year ago. I'm mostly over it but sometimes I still feel a little bit fucked. I'm afraid that the shrooms will bring up all that shit and make me go bad. That's not the biggest point cause my bro will be sitting me the whole time. The problem is that there's a good chance that I'll see things (or think about stuff) that will make me change a lot. I do want to change but I'm afraid for what changes I will make. My gf is afraid of it too... I mean we got a good relationship and stuff so we're both kinda scared on how this will end...

I don't want to sound like someone who doesn't want to try shrooms. I do, I want to explore myself and my feelings. I want to try to get feelings back or feel stuff that I haven't felt in a long time...

Any opinions on if I should try it or I shouldn't cause I had that depression...

 

[tryptonaut]

I can't recommend anything to you, I'll just tell you about myself:

I had been on prozac for almost a year. I wasn't having a really bad depression at the time, but enough so that two different doctors thought that prozac might be a good choice to get me over it. I took it until I felt that I didn't need it anymore. About a year after that I first tried shrooms again, with one difference to my past experiences: I had totally quit smoking weed.
For me, that was the important point - I can now have fully positive shroom experiences even with high doses. I always have a glass or two of wine before I take shrooms which also helps a lot to guide the trip in a positive direction.
Having a shroom trip once in a while makes me feel stronger, better. I can still get into a cycle of bad thoughts on a trip, but I'm able to confront those thoughts and fight them. After such a trip I feel extremely well again, because everything's back to normal and I'm kind of proud of myself for having confronted my negative thoughts.


I will never again use psychedelics recreationally, - it's just not what they're meant to be used for. The only way I use them now is to explore myself spiritually.

However if you're unsure and your girlfriend doesn't approve of it, I guess the setting for you isn't right.

 

[Brakkie]

You did make me more confident with that... I mean I haven't been on any medicins or prozac simply cause I didn't want them... I only talked with my psychiatrist twice after I told him what a piece of shit he was :lolwsign: Really he sucked :iconhead:

After that with some help of friends I conquered most of it... Sometimes I still have some shitty days but I guess everyone has those days...

I don't want to use them for recreational use either... I agree with you! They are ment to explore yourself not just to have plain fun...

I mean my gf didn't really agree with it but she said if you wanna try it out go for it but be honest with me! She does let me free in my decicions and I'm happy with that

I haven't stopped smoking weed... I still use it almost every weekend just to chill and hang out with my bro at night... Have some funny conversations hehe...

I'll really keep your story in mind! It gives me confidence to continue on my search for more information untill I'll try it (hope in couple of weeks)

 

[tryptonaut]

The most important thing is that you have a good stand in life. If you're confronting any fears during a trip it is important that you can say "I'm a good and respected *enter job description here* plus I have friends who support me and stand behind me"
If you got this, then you can do anything. Your friends don't all have to know about your psychedelic adventures, all you need is their support in everyday life.

If there's a chance that your girlfriend's thoughts about shrooms will take you down during a trip, then it won't be a good trip. If you want a really good trip then the person you love must at least be ok with it (she doesn't have to love the idea, but she has to be ok with it)

I only talked with my psychiatrist twice after I told him what a piece of shit he was Really he sucked

I talked two of them into subscring me the drugs I wanted... the first subscribed me to prozac, the second added some tavor (a benzodiazepam). They were all pitiful fools who didn't understand, but they reacted well-trained to the things I had to say... I really hope no one will ever really have to rely on their help - it's totally based on "knowledge" from their books...

 

[Brakkie]

My gf is ok with it

I do feel strong in my shoes. I conquered the depression all by myself and with the help of some close friends.

You really helped me Thnx a lot man! I'll talk about it with her and then I'm gonna go to the smartshop during holiday

 

[skoeip]

About the psychiatrists, it is the same as with other jobs, some are good some are bad. a good psychiatrist kan live in to your emotions, and combine his knowledge with your emotions and that way find a cure for what is "wrong" with you. i believe the human psyche differs to much from person to person to just learn from a book, a good psychiatrist should see in to your soul, not read what your soul should be from a book.

hope you get my meaning from this post.

 

[Brakkie]

Skoeip: I know exactly what you mean! I mean people trust me and tell me a lot of their problems. I'm not a psychiatrist but still I try to get into their emotions and try to help them the best I can. Psychiatrist should do the same. In my opinion my psychiatrist was just like ok you tell your shit and then after an hour you leave and I earned some cash... I really felt like it was just like that... I didn't help me! My friends did! But the one that helped me the most was myself! I solved my shit not the psychiatrist that I payed to help me!

I'm not trying to run away from any shit or think that shrooms can solve my depressions every once in a while... all I want to achieve with the experience is to get feelings back! In my depression I lost most of my feelings. I can't cope with most of my feelings... I mean sadness goes into anger and agression. Love is hard for me to udnerstand. Every once in a while it's quit hard for me to actually believe that someone loves me... It's also hard for me to trust peopel... I want to get some of those feelings back... I want to discover myself... Hope to get in a trip that will make me understand how and why I ended up with that... If 1 feeling comes back I'd be the happiest person alive...

All I wanna do is discover myself, try and understand myself and others better...

 

[Silence_Inc]

well - the part where you say that you ''I do, I want to explore myself and my feelings. I want to try to get feelings back or feel stuff that I haven't felt in a long time..."

is perfect - so - now accept that you can meet anything on your path ... even darker energies or thoughrs will come by ... but fear gets released when it is accepted as a part of yourself - so that's the only thing you can do - ACCEPT! ... and for the rest - mushrooms are carring creatures - they guide you just fine if you let them.

good luck! and only start when you feel you really gonna take on the commitment of accepting what may come! ...

love.