ssdematt
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Peace be upon you,
You might have read my other post on Thursday describing my very-scary (but very enlightening) first ride on Sally.
Anyway, last night, Friday, I decided it was time to do this again - but at a bit lower dose, just to test the drug out at lower levels. This time, I was sitting in front of my computer, looking at videos on Youtube. Once again, I used 30x. Locked & loaded then fired up - burned hot & held it in for about 15 seconds this time (and that was on purpose - didn't want to get too high a bolus of salvinorin A) - one hit only. Put the bowl down. Seconds later, a portal flew out of the wall in front of me and stopped in front of me. I knew I didn't feel like going all the way into the portal floating in the air this time. I didn't feel negative about it this time - I said to the portal (which was swirling with energy emissions & vibrations), "Look, I want to try you out, I know you want me to go in - but now is not the time. I respect what you are doing, but I'm not ready to do it tonight. The time will come - but not tonight." I felt strong intelligence coming from the astral portal in front of me. It seemed to respect my decision, because I had respected it, and not screamed and yelled and cursed this time, as I did on my first trip. I felt the physical buzz that was holding me down in my seat lessen - and I managed to get up and walk around. I saw a group of teenage black kids appear in front of me - it felt like a telepathic, real-time communication link with them, and their bedroom. They were sitting on the floor in a circle getting high on something, and laughing at me, as well as with me. I thought they were like some of the "hippie kids" I went to high school with - but I detected that they "kept it real", unlike the kids I knew in school, and were true "G's" - I don't know where those thoughts about "G's" came from - I just felt them snapping into my awareness - I think I might have been remote-viewing the teenagers....
....at this point, I heard laughter pouring from me; for no real reason, I just started laughing, involuntarily. I realized that I had took control of my experience this time - and since I had learned to respect salvia, she had decided to respect me in return. I thought that my first negative, fearful sally experience was actually just Ms. Salvia putting me on notice that she was a force to be reckoned with, to be respected.....
...I started watching Youtube videos some kids in Killeen, Texas had filmed at their high school. I felt this massive compassion and understanding coming from me, for the kids in the video. I started feeling as if I was melting into these guys, feeling their love, pain, joy - all with an equal, loving eye. I thought of the Buddha - and realized that this was how he felt - 24/7 - after his enlightenment.....Loud laughter and smiles of joy spontaneously emitted from me as I watched the various videos these people had put up....
I decided to lay down in bed - as soon as I did, I felt myself feeling better about myself than I probably ever had in my life. I felt myself accepting my homosexuality for what it is....and I wasn't judging myself....I felt damn proud at that moment....
One more thing I wanted to note - after I told that "portal" that flew out at me that, respectfully, I did not want to experience it at that moment, it kind of backed away from me. But the room was still vibrating with energy, just like I saw the last time....
Another thing - I noticed both times that a funny, burnt taste appeared in my mouth, not while I smoked, not while it was still kicking in, but only after it was working full-force. And the taste disappeared as soon as I started the come-down process. Have any of you experienced that??
Well, I appreciate your time in reading this.....I hope it can help someone, possibly....
In peace,
Matt
You might have read my other post on Thursday describing my very-scary (but very enlightening) first ride on Sally.
Anyway, last night, Friday, I decided it was time to do this again - but at a bit lower dose, just to test the drug out at lower levels. This time, I was sitting in front of my computer, looking at videos on Youtube. Once again, I used 30x. Locked & loaded then fired up - burned hot & held it in for about 15 seconds this time (and that was on purpose - didn't want to get too high a bolus of salvinorin A) - one hit only. Put the bowl down. Seconds later, a portal flew out of the wall in front of me and stopped in front of me. I knew I didn't feel like going all the way into the portal floating in the air this time. I didn't feel negative about it this time - I said to the portal (which was swirling with energy emissions & vibrations), "Look, I want to try you out, I know you want me to go in - but now is not the time. I respect what you are doing, but I'm not ready to do it tonight. The time will come - but not tonight." I felt strong intelligence coming from the astral portal in front of me. It seemed to respect my decision, because I had respected it, and not screamed and yelled and cursed this time, as I did on my first trip. I felt the physical buzz that was holding me down in my seat lessen - and I managed to get up and walk around. I saw a group of teenage black kids appear in front of me - it felt like a telepathic, real-time communication link with them, and their bedroom. They were sitting on the floor in a circle getting high on something, and laughing at me, as well as with me. I thought they were like some of the "hippie kids" I went to high school with - but I detected that they "kept it real", unlike the kids I knew in school, and were true "G's" - I don't know where those thoughts about "G's" came from - I just felt them snapping into my awareness - I think I might have been remote-viewing the teenagers....
....at this point, I heard laughter pouring from me; for no real reason, I just started laughing, involuntarily. I realized that I had took control of my experience this time - and since I had learned to respect salvia, she had decided to respect me in return. I thought that my first negative, fearful sally experience was actually just Ms. Salvia putting me on notice that she was a force to be reckoned with, to be respected.....
...I started watching Youtube videos some kids in Killeen, Texas had filmed at their high school. I felt this massive compassion and understanding coming from me, for the kids in the video. I started feeling as if I was melting into these guys, feeling their love, pain, joy - all with an equal, loving eye. I thought of the Buddha - and realized that this was how he felt - 24/7 - after his enlightenment.....Loud laughter and smiles of joy spontaneously emitted from me as I watched the various videos these people had put up....
I decided to lay down in bed - as soon as I did, I felt myself feeling better about myself than I probably ever had in my life. I felt myself accepting my homosexuality for what it is....and I wasn't judging myself....I felt damn proud at that moment....
One more thing I wanted to note - after I told that "portal" that flew out at me that, respectfully, I did not want to experience it at that moment, it kind of backed away from me. But the room was still vibrating with energy, just like I saw the last time....
Another thing - I noticed both times that a funny, burnt taste appeared in my mouth, not while I smoked, not while it was still kicking in, but only after it was working full-force. And the taste disappeared as soon as I started the come-down process. Have any of you experienced that??
Well, I appreciate your time in reading this.....I hope it can help someone, possibly....
In peace,
Matt
