GregAndrsn
Neurotransmetteur
- Inscrit
- 12/2/11
- Messages
- 54
Very different situation for me in taking DMT. I have always done it alone, but this time a friend asked me to sit with him, and we'd both do it before he leaves for a few months.
We walked and I talked and tried to calm him, get him in the right setting, just so he can be aware, but I think I was actually just calming myself.
We sat down on his carpet and I told him he should go first, it just felt right. He tried but couldn't, he had a cold and it hurt his lungs too much to do so. He kept coughing and couldn't get much of anything. I had a striking thought that maybe I shouldn't. But we kept talking, and conversing and consoleing, he went into the bathroom and the spice was still hot so I just inhaled a little bit. I felt it, but like a wisened man, a heightening of the senses.
He came back, I told him to try again - no avail.
At this point I felt beautiful, in an indescribable way and decided to go in. I Took a large hit, but fell back before I could take another to break through.
The world stopped and it was me again, in the pulsing heart of everything. I felt real, I felt like I could talk or say or think anything with the greatest of clarity. A woman was above me, parallel to my body, telling me that my (coughing) friend was going to be fine, and that he wasn't ready - but I couldn't explain to him or myself why. It was a very confusing reason, almost too complicated to use words for. It just wasn't going to be. At this point I took comfort in the words, that my friend was going to be ok and the warm love of this lady savior, a very motherly being.
I turned over and felt gorgeous, beautiful, engulfing waves. I wanted to explain it,I want to communicate it but as soon as I tried the social constructs of what is right and wrong blocked me and I laughed histarically at this. I kept funneling the ideas, the vocabulary out from this realm and into my english tongue and all that could come out was "This is insane! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
I laughed and laughed at how funny the social barriers are, what is and is not ok to say - I kept wanting to say its like a pulsating nerve network of love and knowledge. It's not scientific knowledge, it is an omnipotent knowledge - it doesn't need to know the rules (physics, science, w/e), it just is. I kept trying to explain it but all I could do was laugh at how hard it was. I've never felt that amazing from DMT before, I've never been that accepted / accepting. I loved every minute of it.
Love all of you too!
We walked and I talked and tried to calm him, get him in the right setting, just so he can be aware, but I think I was actually just calming myself.
We sat down on his carpet and I told him he should go first, it just felt right. He tried but couldn't, he had a cold and it hurt his lungs too much to do so. He kept coughing and couldn't get much of anything. I had a striking thought that maybe I shouldn't. But we kept talking, and conversing and consoleing, he went into the bathroom and the spice was still hot so I just inhaled a little bit. I felt it, but like a wisened man, a heightening of the senses.
He came back, I told him to try again - no avail.
At this point I felt beautiful, in an indescribable way and decided to go in. I Took a large hit, but fell back before I could take another to break through.
The world stopped and it was me again, in the pulsing heart of everything. I felt real, I felt like I could talk or say or think anything with the greatest of clarity. A woman was above me, parallel to my body, telling me that my (coughing) friend was going to be fine, and that he wasn't ready - but I couldn't explain to him or myself why. It was a very confusing reason, almost too complicated to use words for. It just wasn't going to be. At this point I took comfort in the words, that my friend was going to be ok and the warm love of this lady savior, a very motherly being.
I turned over and felt gorgeous, beautiful, engulfing waves. I wanted to explain it,I want to communicate it but as soon as I tried the social constructs of what is right and wrong blocked me and I laughed histarically at this. I kept funneling the ideas, the vocabulary out from this realm and into my english tongue and all that could come out was "This is insane! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
I laughed and laughed at how funny the social barriers are, what is and is not ok to say - I kept wanting to say its like a pulsating nerve network of love and knowledge. It's not scientific knowledge, it is an omnipotent knowledge - it doesn't need to know the rules (physics, science, w/e), it just is. I kept trying to explain it but all I could do was laugh at how hard it was. I've never felt that amazing from DMT before, I've never been that accepted / accepting. I loved every minute of it.
Love all of you too!
