finally had it done, found my self in a trance like state where i just sort of fazed out.
she put the needles in my arms and i sort of have this thing with the creases on my body like a compulsive thing, causes me to get anxious.
Anyway she puts final needles dead center of my wrists leaves sound proof room and says go to sleep.
.....i'm rubbing my wrists just thinkin of it now....
So im thinkin what have i done to miself all i can do is feel these things pin pointed in the middle of my wrists and up my arms, the lights on, and a sheet over me.
so i try to relax close eyes but am just about to scream from anxiety and pull out the needles, then i told myself to try and relax and i decided to try and tell myself a story to take my mind off the needles i remember i started putting words together and it was like i was 100% concentrating on these words they were literally being thrown out like i was visualizing them for a second word after word had my attention. *(Eyes Closed)*, Then the line of words quickly just rolled out and i felt like i just slipped on down it like a slide. ( This all was projecting from between my eyes, Third eye??), happened in a moment the slipping away.
there was nothing. then i remember being in a state of complete relaxation like nothing i have experienced before i can only put it to being suspended in animation.
There was a circle with crystal liquid sort of flowing around the outside and then into the middle, Dunno.
I fazed back for a couple seconds to reality as comfortably as i had left being aware, and for a second i could feel or hear, the room? i could sense the edges of the walls like radar i dont know, a certain sound pitch. it was a pure silent room though?
then i fazed back to the circle thing, that was my concious just outside my face where time stopped, until she broke the silence and time was over.
i hadnt had any drugs for couple of months and hadnt eaten that day, was fasting so wasnt really hungry, they say fasting helps with deep meditation, also i hadnt beaten the meat for aabout a month.
I had tried but never really succeeded in meditation before, cant stop my mind chatter.
hope it works again.
it was sort of like breaking through on a DMT crystal hit, but there was nothing intense about it besides the needle anxiety attack, but yeah i broke through soo gently unnoticably.
just realised when you break through you always come to in the midst of it all aye. like you switch off momentarilly after breaking through.?
she put the needles in my arms and i sort of have this thing with the creases on my body like a compulsive thing, causes me to get anxious.
Anyway she puts final needles dead center of my wrists leaves sound proof room and says go to sleep.
.....i'm rubbing my wrists just thinkin of it now....
So im thinkin what have i done to miself all i can do is feel these things pin pointed in the middle of my wrists and up my arms, the lights on, and a sheet over me.
so i try to relax close eyes but am just about to scream from anxiety and pull out the needles, then i told myself to try and relax and i decided to try and tell myself a story to take my mind off the needles i remember i started putting words together and it was like i was 100% concentrating on these words they were literally being thrown out like i was visualizing them for a second word after word had my attention. *(Eyes Closed)*, Then the line of words quickly just rolled out and i felt like i just slipped on down it like a slide. ( This all was projecting from between my eyes, Third eye??), happened in a moment the slipping away.
there was nothing. then i remember being in a state of complete relaxation like nothing i have experienced before i can only put it to being suspended in animation.
There was a circle with crystal liquid sort of flowing around the outside and then into the middle, Dunno.
I fazed back for a couple seconds to reality as comfortably as i had left being aware, and for a second i could feel or hear, the room? i could sense the edges of the walls like radar i dont know, a certain sound pitch. it was a pure silent room though?
then i fazed back to the circle thing, that was my concious just outside my face where time stopped, until she broke the silence and time was over.
i hadnt had any drugs for couple of months and hadnt eaten that day, was fasting so wasnt really hungry, they say fasting helps with deep meditation, also i hadnt beaten the meat for aabout a month.
I had tried but never really succeeded in meditation before, cant stop my mind chatter.
hope it works again.
it was sort of like breaking through on a DMT crystal hit, but there was nothing intense about it besides the needle anxiety attack, but yeah i broke through soo gently unnoticably.
just realised when you break through you always come to in the midst of it all aye. like you switch off momentarilly after breaking through.?
