Salvia D and a mental Block?¿?¿

[ProStoner]

hey guys
i`ve posted a few topics here for example about my resistance for 10x
well now I smoked 20x.. but again the same thing
allthought now I think its more my mind that makes me resist
its really weird.
when I smoke salvia en the effects start to kick in
I get really mad... and i`m in a big conflict with something
I start to sweat all over and theres a big pressure and its really uncomfortable
it seems that somehow I cannot let go or that I am not allowed in to Lady Salvia's world
cause I mean 20x.. is like tha shit
but its not getting me anywhere more then 10x... en making me really angry
its like this conflict with salvia or with myself i`m not sure yet
I smoked thru a small bong
when I took my first big Toke I felt allready the effects rushing in..(for as far as they go with me that is)
in my mind I went crazy.. think no nonon ono NOOOOO I don't want this, not again.... but I thought godamnit why can't I just have a good experience so I just kept smoking .. trying to let go of that feeling
but I ended up being dazed and confused

does anyone know of such an experience ??
I really want to get my mind right for this mental block or whatever to go away..
I meditated before smoking also.. I was completely calm and relaxed but halfway in I freaked cause I knew I was gonna get the same bad thing as with the other times

 

[Cyproxicus]

Maybe you should try salvia 5x or 10x on a nice (not to hard) shroom-trip. That way you lose some of your self-control.. luckely you lose that part that is holding you back. Just a guess.

 

[HeartCore]

Agree with Cypr, I know what you mean with mind block, something is holding me back as well. I'm also thinking of combining it with a mishyroom trip.

 

[serguei]

in my short experience with Sally i have felt the same as almost all, i guess:
the main dificulty to plunge in is our inhability to let go...
every doubt will be a tied knot, every lack of flowing a comeback.
It's amazing for me the ways Sally challenges oneself and one ego...

As far as i can see now, she gives tracks each time to lead us to know ourselves and find what's there... and if we change it for our own sake, she gives us more

other side of the same truth, she can be very stubborn when saying "Not yet"

i wish you very good flights!

boom

 

[Meduzz]

i heared or read once that it's very nice to smoke salvia comming down a mushroom trip, also because salvia has nice after effects.

i also think that salvia trips are like lucid dreams: if you want one, you shouldn't want it to much.

 

[ProStoner]

well apparently I don't want it to much cause I`m having the mind block hehe
but anyways the shrooms might sound like an idea..
it should really open up mind mind for other things .... but it could also get me even more scared smoking salvia, but i`m gonna give it a shot when the time is there
just a few shrooms and when i`m at my peek i`ll smoke the salvia ..
first I might just try some dried leaves or so and then the extract

only thing is I fear that I will disrespect lady salvia with this...

thanks guys