Ravasher
Glandeuse pinéale
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Bonjour,
Mon vocabulaire Français est beaucoup plus limite que mon vocabulaire Anglais. Néanmoins, ma communauté dans le forum est Française.
Je n'arriverais pas a exprimer mon trip par écrit en Français, je l'ai donc fais en Anglais.
J'ai beaucoup hésité a mettre le post mais je me suis dis qu'il faut que je partage cette expérience au moins avec ceux qui m'ont aide et conseille sur le chemin, si c'est mal pris on pourra toujours le supprimer
.
Enjoy
Setting:
I had intedend to do it alone, at my place during the night.
The plans suddenly changed and I did it with one of my sexual partners as a willing sitter, in a motel with nice independent appartment style rooms in a forest.
I prepared a playing list on my mobile phone to be heard through headphones. It consisted of (in that order):
Sigur Ros
Bach
Paul Horn (instrumental traditional chinese music)
Shanti and friends (instrumental traditional chinese music)
My last meal was at around 14h and after that I went for a walk in the forest for a few hours.
I prepared a bottle of water and abowl containing almonds, raisins and cashew nuts (I'm a good eater so I was kind of starving 6h after my last meal).
I was ready
The Trip
I started eating them at around 19:00, 15g of fresh Atlantis truffles. They tasted excellent to be honest, I really loved the taste, so I still don't understand what people mean by "disgusting". Well, good for me as it was one of my major "fears" for the trip.
They dropped really well on my utterly empty stomach and that was a very good surprise. No signs of nausea ever manifested all throughout the trip which was the second really good news!
But, of course, the best was yet to come.
It kicked in really fast (around 15 minutes after ingestion of last one), nothing noticeable had changed on my surroundings or my mind or body, but there was this undefined sensation of I just know it's here already.
I sincerely felt welcomed, I really felt that I was going and that I was already in a safe place. I was really relaxed.
I decided to lay down and put my headphones and start the music.
My sitter asked if she could lie down on my side and I had nothing against it (for a joke, like in 10min, my sitter became a "sleeper" instead for the next 3-4h).
I made myself comfortable, I closed my eyes and as soon as I started the music, the experience started. Sigur Ros (only the calm songs) is highly reccomended, I was so lucky (I think) of having started with them.
As the first notes started to play on my ears, I was transported to this unique and marvellous oceanic, deep water universe, spectacular and colossal underwater animals, whale like fish were like dancing and the water had colored stripes dancing and almost like defining a road. I felt that I was diving deeper and deeper, I was in such awe that tears started falling from my closed eyes, I was crying of immense beauty and that was a first time for me ever.
It was water but at the same it wasn't, as if they were animated drawing of some kind, there was something not "natural" about it.
And then I thought, ok, it makes sense, they're from iceland, it makes sense that their music will transport me to an ocean environment. But I talked too soon, as the second song started, another whole new environment took the setting (I can't recall many details but it was in a forest).
And all throughout the trip it was like that. every new song, started and "showed" me a whole new environment. Only very seldom I had a more personal related vision, some characters talking or showing me something. It was overall an amazing tour.
Again, as I stated before, Sigur Ros, was excellent. It transported me through several different environments always really nature related.
At one point, like superposed on one of these environments, I saw a group of 3-4 old native american indian that were handing their hands together. They didn't speak nor move and I saw them thrusting their arms towards my chest and through my chest. They somehow told me or somehow I knew that they were putting courage into my heart because I needed it to honor my heritage. I think it was one of the highest moments of the trip but unfortunately I have no clue it as of what it meant.
During one of the forest voyages, I clearly felt the smell of the dry fruits inside the bowl by me and it was by far the most intense and pleasureable smell I've ever experienced in my whole life. I couldn't believe how strong it was. I inspired for so long that I felt that my lungs could absorb the world's oxygen, I kept the aire inside me and then I expired deeply. My breath was making what seemed to me a kind of curled long vine react as it would close when I inspired and open up and extend when I expired. I felt like I had two noses and one really aware on where to bread, where to get the purest of airs but they were both at the same place.
this awesome smell from this point stood with me throughout the entire trip.
Bach started and it was odd, all universes were extremely technological, mathematical, repetitive, over structured, one of them seemed like a universe made of some kind of organic lego. I didn't feel bad or something like that, it's just I was coming from such a beauty shown during Sigur Ros, that I felt like bored... Nature had no place during Bach, nor entities nor characters nor insights of any kind.
Over two hours had passed and it seemed like 15 minutes to me.
The instrumental chinese music started.
Maybe it was because I was more advanced on the trip but it left much more space for thought than for voyages.
Here are some situations I can recall (I'll be adding if anything else comes):
I was naked (I felt like it was me but looking closer, it really wasn't - this guy looked much better than me) lying on the ground in fetal position near a huge tree and I was surrounded by it's roots, enveloping me in a way that when I zoomed out, It was like I was the center of an eye, or maybe inside a womb. I was really serene and I was humming, chanting or maybe just thinking of a poem or a song to the earth. It was a great emotional moment but I only recall very few words which I really don't know what they mean ("I embraced you and I cried as your sons, my brothers were being killed and their blood was being spilled but that was making you pregnant [...] but I'm strong and have hope and I know it's not over - and that's about all...).
I saw this city landscape, everything wrecked, noone around (like what you see on those "end of the world" or zombie attack films) but somehow, nature was already moving over the city. My attention is drawn to a specific place (looking like what should have been a highway road, wrecked cars, etc...) and I see trees and the ground was covered with some substance like it had "grown" or been dropped there. The surface looked like the salt deserts but the texture looked more like tree bark. I zoomed in and I see myself coming from beneath this surface by breaking it. No more recalls.
During this period I felt somehow that atlantis truffles aren't "old" at all and are feminine, I felt like they were a young wild silvain adolescent, full of marvel and energy. willing to show lots of things (like an enthusiastic kid when you go for the first time in their playing room). I don't know why, there is no relation to any previous assumption or whatsoever, I just felt it like this.
It all happened with my eyes closed, Whenever I opened my eys, there were just really slight distortions of the surrounding, like some fuzziness but sometimes some kind of embossed surfaces, until... I decided to look at my hand!
I was wearing a t-shirt and when I put my attention on my arm, I noticed that the hair is entrelacing and starting to form what it seemed like tree bark, I was really surprised, I closed my eys for some kind of "reboot" but I opened them again decided to keep looking. I went up to my hand and I saw that it had changed in color, it was greyish, brownish, these tonalities seemed to be really sensitive to light and shadow and I thought "OMG! I'm having blood circulation problems! My 2 second panic made me look to the side to my "sleeper" and just as the thought came, I thought to myself, well, let me look into it again and the worry just vanished from my mind as soon as it arrived. So I just kept examining my hand, this time in extremely detail, my fingers were much shorter and thicker, more like the foot of some animal than a hand. I moved them and realized that when I closed my hand the fingers just disappeared and it just looked like some kind of mushroom. My palm had the same tonalities but the hand lines were like glowing and shadow and light just made spectacular effects on it. I felt really alive at that moment.
I closed my eyes again and thought, ok, it must be over, it was nice, like if I was intending to buy the t-shirt "Been there Done that" and I guess the truffles didn't like it. I had this sting on my stomach, not very painful but enough to "wake you up" and I thought, ok, sorry it's just the usual dumb controller me, so I relaxed, focused on the smell and it went away.
I don't recall much of what happened afterwards, I guess maybe 1-1 1/2 more had passed and I just relaxed and decided to keep quiet until I felt the urge to do otherwise. I hadn't realised but I was thirsty so I drank from the bottle and it tasted awfull, it only tasted the plastic and not the water (which is the brand I usually drink and appreciate).
And that was it, I really loved the experience but for next time I want to go deeper. I don't have anymore truffles, I harvested a really small amount of my first flush of Golden teacher, by far not enough and am eagerly awaiting for my Mckennaii which will be much more abundant.
I decided that I'll go with 30g/3g and I really think I want to be alone.
I also felt that music really guided the trip, next time, I have one of two options, whether total silence or low volume external music (not from headphones).
Thank you very much for your time reading these words and hope you enjoyed.
Mon vocabulaire Français est beaucoup plus limite que mon vocabulaire Anglais. Néanmoins, ma communauté dans le forum est Française.
Je n'arriverais pas a exprimer mon trip par écrit en Français, je l'ai donc fais en Anglais.
J'ai beaucoup hésité a mettre le post mais je me suis dis qu'il faut que je partage cette expérience au moins avec ceux qui m'ont aide et conseille sur le chemin, si c'est mal pris on pourra toujours le supprimer
.Enjoy
Setting:
I had intedend to do it alone, at my place during the night.
The plans suddenly changed and I did it with one of my sexual partners as a willing sitter, in a motel with nice independent appartment style rooms in a forest.
I prepared a playing list on my mobile phone to be heard through headphones. It consisted of (in that order):
Sigur Ros
Bach
Paul Horn (instrumental traditional chinese music)
Shanti and friends (instrumental traditional chinese music)
My last meal was at around 14h and after that I went for a walk in the forest for a few hours.
I prepared a bottle of water and abowl containing almonds, raisins and cashew nuts (I'm a good eater so I was kind of starving 6h after my last meal
).I was ready
The Trip
I started eating them at around 19:00, 15g of fresh Atlantis truffles. They tasted excellent to be honest, I really loved the taste, so I still don't understand what people mean by "disgusting". Well, good for me as it was one of my major "fears" for the trip
.They dropped really well on my utterly empty stomach and that was a very good surprise. No signs of nausea ever manifested all throughout the trip which was the second really good news!
But, of course, the best was yet to come.
It kicked in really fast (around 15 minutes after ingestion of last one), nothing noticeable had changed on my surroundings or my mind or body, but there was this undefined sensation of I just know it's here already.
I sincerely felt welcomed, I really felt that I was going and that I was already in a safe place. I was really relaxed.
I decided to lay down and put my headphones and start the music.
My sitter asked if she could lie down on my side and I had nothing against it (for a joke, like in 10min, my sitter became a "sleeper" instead for the next 3-4h
).I made myself comfortable, I closed my eyes and as soon as I started the music, the experience started. Sigur Ros (only the calm songs) is highly reccomended, I was so lucky (I think) of having started with them.
As the first notes started to play on my ears, I was transported to this unique and marvellous oceanic, deep water universe, spectacular and colossal underwater animals, whale like fish were like dancing and the water had colored stripes dancing and almost like defining a road. I felt that I was diving deeper and deeper, I was in such awe that tears started falling from my closed eyes, I was crying of immense beauty and that was a first time for me ever.
It was water but at the same it wasn't, as if they were animated drawing of some kind, there was something not "natural" about it.
And then I thought, ok, it makes sense, they're from iceland, it makes sense that their music will transport me to an ocean environment. But I talked too soon, as the second song started, another whole new environment took the setting (I can't recall many details but it was in a forest).
And all throughout the trip it was like that. every new song, started and "showed" me a whole new environment. Only very seldom I had a more personal related vision, some characters talking or showing me something. It was overall an amazing tour.
Again, as I stated before, Sigur Ros, was excellent. It transported me through several different environments always really nature related.
At one point, like superposed on one of these environments, I saw a group of 3-4 old native american indian that were handing their hands together. They didn't speak nor move and I saw them thrusting their arms towards my chest and through my chest. They somehow told me or somehow I knew that they were putting courage into my heart because I needed it to honor my heritage. I think it was one of the highest moments of the trip but unfortunately I have no clue it as of what it meant.
During one of the forest voyages, I clearly felt the smell of the dry fruits inside the bowl by me and it was by far the most intense and pleasureable smell I've ever experienced in my whole life. I couldn't believe how strong it was. I inspired for so long that I felt that my lungs could absorb the world's oxygen, I kept the aire inside me and then I expired deeply. My breath was making what seemed to me a kind of curled long vine react as it would close when I inspired and open up and extend when I expired. I felt like I had two noses and one really aware on where to bread, where to get the purest of airs but they were both at the same place.
this awesome smell from this point stood with me throughout the entire trip.
Bach started and it was odd, all universes were extremely technological, mathematical, repetitive, over structured, one of them seemed like a universe made of some kind of organic lego. I didn't feel bad or something like that, it's just I was coming from such a beauty shown during Sigur Ros, that I felt like bored... Nature had no place during Bach, nor entities nor characters nor insights of any kind.
Over two hours had passed and it seemed like 15 minutes to me.
The instrumental chinese music started.
Maybe it was because I was more advanced on the trip but it left much more space for thought than for voyages.
Here are some situations I can recall (I'll be adding if anything else comes):
I was naked (I felt like it was me but looking closer, it really wasn't - this guy looked much better than me
) lying on the ground in fetal position near a huge tree and I was surrounded by it's roots, enveloping me in a way that when I zoomed out, It was like I was the center of an eye, or maybe inside a womb. I was really serene and I was humming, chanting or maybe just thinking of a poem or a song to the earth. It was a great emotional moment but I only recall very few words which I really don't know what they mean ("I embraced you and I cried as your sons, my brothers were being killed and their blood was being spilled but that was making you pregnant [...] but I'm strong and have hope and I know it's not over - and that's about all...).I saw this city landscape, everything wrecked, noone around (like what you see on those "end of the world" or zombie attack films
) but somehow, nature was already moving over the city. My attention is drawn to a specific place (looking like what should have been a highway road, wrecked cars, etc...) and I see trees and the ground was covered with some substance like it had "grown" or been dropped there. The surface looked like the salt deserts but the texture looked more like tree bark. I zoomed in and I see myself coming from beneath this surface by breaking it. No more recalls.During this period I felt somehow that atlantis truffles aren't "old" at all and are feminine, I felt like they were a young wild silvain adolescent, full of marvel and energy. willing to show lots of things (like an enthusiastic kid when you go for the first time in their playing room). I don't know why, there is no relation to any previous assumption or whatsoever, I just felt it like this
.It all happened with my eyes closed, Whenever I opened my eys, there were just really slight distortions of the surrounding, like some fuzziness but sometimes some kind of embossed surfaces, until... I decided to look at my hand
!I was wearing a t-shirt and when I put my attention on my arm, I noticed that the hair is entrelacing and starting to form what it seemed like tree bark, I was really surprised, I closed my eys for some kind of "reboot"
but I opened them again decided to keep looking. I went up to my hand and I saw that it had changed in color, it was greyish, brownish, these tonalities seemed to be really sensitive to light and shadow and I thought "OMG! I'm having blood circulation problems! My 2 second panic made me look to the side to my "sleeper" and just as the thought came, I thought to myself, well, let me look into it again and the worry just vanished from my mind as soon as it arrived. So I just kept examining my hand, this time in extremely detail, my fingers were much shorter and thicker, more like the foot of some animal than a hand. I moved them and realized that when I closed my hand the fingers just disappeared and it just looked like some kind of mushroom. My palm had the same tonalities but the hand lines were like glowing and shadow and light just made spectacular effects on it. I felt really alive at that moment. I closed my eyes again and thought, ok, it must be over, it was nice, like if I was intending to buy the t-shirt "Been there Done that" and I guess the truffles didn't like it
. I had this sting on my stomach, not very painful but enough to "wake you up" and I thought, ok, sorry it's just the usual dumb controller me, so I relaxed, focused on the smell and it went away.I don't recall much of what happened afterwards, I guess maybe 1-1 1/2 more had passed and I just relaxed and decided to keep quiet until I felt the urge to do otherwise. I hadn't realised but I was thirsty so I drank from the bottle and it tasted awfull, it only tasted the plastic and not the water (which is the brand I usually drink and appreciate).
And that was it
, I really loved the experience but for next time I want to go deeper. I don't have anymore truffles, I harvested a really small amount of my first flush of Golden teacher, by far not enough and am eagerly awaiting for my Mckennaii which will be much more abundant.I decided that I'll go with 30g/3g and I really think I want to be alone.
I also felt that music really guided the trip, next time, I have one of two options, whether total silence or low volume external music (not from headphones).
Thank you very much for your time reading these words and hope you enjoyed
.
