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I wasn't prepared for this trip...
The UPS guy came knocking on my door, and I couldn't resist, even though I was ill.
I don't smoke anymore, but made an exception for the Salvia, filled a pipe (0.5gr 5X extract). Because I didn't expect teh amount of smoke I opened a window, inhaled very deep for a few times and instantly I was gone, completely in another realitity.
My ego was completely dissolved and I was stuck in an abstract world; it seemed like a hill with two trees, where everything consisted of little coloured balls. I had the sensation of being a wave in these little balls, moving from the one side to the other in the scene. It felt very invasive, and I was feeling progressively colder and uncomfortable yet my connection with my body was lost. Although, I remember feeling my desk as if i was searching for something just on touch. Perhaps I was trying to find the ashtray to drop the pipe in. (the pipe was dropped on my desk, when I smoked in the living room, with the ashtray there...) So I suspect the "moving in a wave up an down", was me moving/running up and down in my living room being totally detached with reality.
Eventually I could bundle enough concentration to get in my bed, and wait it out. There was this constant presence (repeated thoughts, which were transformed in a outer voice) making me feel like I'd done something really stupid after I tried to grasp the concept of "drugs". The complete concept of introducing a subtance in one's body felt so surreal and absurd.
I started to concentrate on "manifesting my trusted life"; I was very aware I was hallucinating, but it was so overhelming, firm, and intrusive that it was nearly too much. As if someone wanted to teach me a lesson, playing with my limits; "you think you can handle the other side, well, this is what it could be. Pussy." yet it was so unearthly and real it was beautiful. If only I could enjoy it...
I can't say how long I was gone, could've been a few minutes, or hours...
I think I might repeat the experience making certain there's a more comfortable setting (not sick, not opening windows in freezing cold thinking I'd be able to close it, ...).
The UPS guy came knocking on my door, and I couldn't resist, even though I was ill.
I don't smoke anymore, but made an exception for the Salvia, filled a pipe (0.5gr 5X extract). Because I didn't expect teh amount of smoke I opened a window, inhaled very deep for a few times and instantly I was gone, completely in another realitity.
My ego was completely dissolved and I was stuck in an abstract world; it seemed like a hill with two trees, where everything consisted of little coloured balls. I had the sensation of being a wave in these little balls, moving from the one side to the other in the scene. It felt very invasive, and I was feeling progressively colder and uncomfortable yet my connection with my body was lost. Although, I remember feeling my desk as if i was searching for something just on touch. Perhaps I was trying to find the ashtray to drop the pipe in. (the pipe was dropped on my desk, when I smoked in the living room, with the ashtray there...) So I suspect the "moving in a wave up an down", was me moving/running up and down in my living room being totally detached with reality.
Eventually I could bundle enough concentration to get in my bed, and wait it out. There was this constant presence (repeated thoughts, which were transformed in a outer voice) making me feel like I'd done something really stupid after I tried to grasp the concept of "drugs". The complete concept of introducing a subtance in one's body felt so surreal and absurd.
I started to concentrate on "manifesting my trusted life"; I was very aware I was hallucinating, but it was so overhelming, firm, and intrusive that it was nearly too much. As if someone wanted to teach me a lesson, playing with my limits; "you think you can handle the other side, well, this is what it could be. Pussy." yet it was so unearthly and real it was beautiful. If only I could enjoy it...
I can't say how long I was gone, could've been a few minutes, or hours...
I think I might repeat the experience making certain there's a more comfortable setting (not sick, not opening windows in freezing cold thinking I'd be able to close it, ...).
